Poetry and Parchment

Thursday, March 26th, 2009 8:41 pm — Stories, Rambles, and Other ThingsComments (0)

I sold my car recently and, as a celebration of sorts, took the money I would have wasted on the vehicle that month and spent it on a stack of poetry books. I will never read every page of every one of these books but I look forward to wandering through complete and collected works of John Ashbery, Kenneth Koch, Philip Larkin, Robert Creeley, James Merrill, and several others. I expect to get more mileage out of these books then I got out of the rarely-used car.
I am not sure why I read poetry. I rarely remember lines nor do I drop poetical quotations into conversation or correspondence. My attraction to poetry begins from the notion that it is work done of passion, or of non-commercial interest. Little money is made by even the most successful poets, with the motives for publishing poetry focusing on reputation and professional standing at academic institutions.
Of my recent purchases Ezra Pound’s Poems & Translations is one of the first books I opened, and I have his Cantos on hand. Reading Pound reminds me of my aunt’s description of Salman Rushdie’s Satanic Verses. She said it was a dazzling read but to even sense what’s under the surface (and to understand the controversy which surrounded that book) one needed a graduate degree in world religions and politics. Similarly with much of Pound (the Cantos most notably but in much of his later works) I feel unworthy of the task. The Cantos‘ numerous allusions are said to cite a relatively small body of historical and literary writing but I nevertheless expect never to rise to the occasion of absorbing the background needed to get where Pound went in those 800+ pages. I have, however, found much to chew on and laugh at in Personae and other earlier works, as well as in ABC of Reading. Pound’s mind is bloated with self-righteousness and arrogant bluster, and I do indeed laugh at the man, not with him.
My copy of Pound’s Poems & Translations is published by The Library of America, as is a recently acquired volume of John Ashbery’s Collected Poems 1956-1987. I prefer rougher parchment, and while I do not dislike the binding or printing of these Library of America volumes I disagree with those who praise the series to the sky for the quality of the printed product. To me it does not suit the nature of Ashbery’s work, much of which I have known for years from their original published volumes. I think my familiarity with these works in different printed contexts contributes to my feelings about seeing then in a uniform format that is used for numerous other writers in the Library of America series. I do not think Ashbery’s work communicates the same way when moved from one physical setting to another, with the long poem Litany in particular losing its physical mystique (or perhaps assuming a different one) by being split in two and having its halves separated into pages which are roughly half the size of the original publication. You do see the poem in the almost the same way as the original, but I find that the page break in the middle cuts the bond between the two halves of the conversation. On the other hand I might come to appreciate this format for that very separation of conversations, a division of content which is at the core of the poem’s meaning.
Nevertheless I just ordered two volumes of Gertrude Stein’s writings, as published by Library of America.
One of the great treasures of printed poetry, though, is the relationship one develops with the printed matter. As I think about this I ask myself: what printed volumes do I like? I can think of several off-hand. The piano works of Charles Alkan, in particular the Le Festin D’ésope published by Gérard Billaudot, was a particular favorite. The music font they used had a militaristic tautness about it that, to me, reflected and even became synonymous with the character of Alkan’s music. The physical size of the score was a bit larger than most others, a fact which sometimes made secure placement of the score on the music stand a dicey affair.
Another volume I learned to love was the Library of World Poetry, edited by William Cullen Bryant. I read from that nearly-800-page volume throughout my high school and college years. I grew to appreciate how it rendered jagged the lines of poetry, crushing them into narrow columns in a way that made the the restrictions of the printed page itself a part of the experience.
Alas, in both of these cases my relationship with the books was cut when I lost them. The Alkan score vanished some time after college, and the poetry book disappeared around the same time. I have since replaced them with other copies, but neither truly replaces those original books I knew so well. The Alkan score I now have in a re-print, but that re-print is on smaller pages and feels crushed onto the page. I found a copy of the Library of World Poetry at a used bookstore in Tampa, but the coffee stains in that book are not mine and the pages are not yellowed the same as the book I lost.



















Random Picture

Tuesday, March 24th, 2009 10:48 am — Stories, Rambles, and Other ThingsComments (0)

Checking in on my Random Pictures page I spotted this strange one, in which a tiny human being appears to be caught in a bush.

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always

Sunday, March 15th, 2009 1:52 pm — PassagesComments (0)

Still glinting wings; the dull-red lacquer head
Lifted from its socket, turned machanically
This way and that, like a wristwatch being wound,
As if there would always be time . . .
From The House Fly, by Robert Merrill

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KTPB in Kilgore, Texas, and a Greyhound Bus Trip

Friday, March 6th, 2009 9:50 pm — Stories, Rambles, and Other ThingsComments (2)

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This Greyhound Bus receipt documents an important piece of personal history for me.

In September of 1990, a few months after graduating from college, I took a bus trip to Kilgore, Texas, to interview for a job as Programming Director at KTPB FM in Kilgore. It was an all-new station and the crew setting it up had solid credentials to back up their credibility. The bus trip was memorable. I met a baby-faced man in his late 30s who had just been released from prison. He was happy to be free and optimistic about his future. A drunk passenger boarded the bus in Alabama and the busdriver took me aside and said “If that asshole gives you any trouble or throws up on ya just gimme a holler and I’ll throw his ass off the bus.” At a gas station in a small Louisiana town I dropped some quarters on the ground and saw some locals move toward it like it was a natural pulse of life. The most haunting memory of the trip was its first 10 seconds when I saw my mother in the bus station letting the bus leave and acting (poorly) like her mind was on something other than me leaving her forever.

Kilgore is in the middle of the East Texas oil fields. That may not seem like a prime location for a classical music station (KTPB was to be all classical programming) but it made sense when you learned that the legendary American pianist Van Cliburn is from that area and that he is nothing less than royalty in the region.

Van Cliburn’s presence in the area of Kilgore and nearby Tyler made an all-classical station a reasonably suitable match for the demographic. I did not get the $40k/year job but that rejection came after a memorably exhaustive series of interviews and background checks that one might expect to endure if pursuing a lifetime tenure position at a major university. The job went to a more experienced programmer from within Texas.

Contrary to the assurances I was given by the fine folks at KTPB I never did get a job in radio, and maybe I never will, though it stays on my radar for things I feel I should do with this life. Other radio stations at the time that could not (or would not) hire me all seemed to lavish me with assurances that I would get my job in radio one way or another, but as of now it is not to be.

I moved to New York City a month after making this epic, no-sleep Greyhound voyage from Tampa to East Texas. My life would probably be very different now had my adulthood started in Kilgore, Texas, and not at the Parc Lincoln Hotel in Manhattan. Things that did happen since 1990 would not have happened, but who knows what adventures would have transpired.

A strange thing happened with KTPB. Several years after I was rejected the person who got the job I applied for moved on to another job, and I would later hear that the General Manager who helped establish KTPB moved on to start a new radio station somewhere else in America (Kansas, I think?). The president of Kilgore College (KTPB was associated with that school and its president contributed to that endless battery of interviews in 1990) contacted me to see if I might still be interested in a job at KTPB. I honestly was not interested but something about the opportunity (flattery at being asked, I guess) prompted me to reserve time at a recording facility to make a fresh demo tape of myself talking like a radio guy — something I had not done for years. Uninspired but yet inspired I went through with it, and the tape was pretty awful. I sent the tape with another application form and other information and this time I was completely ignored. I never even got a rejection letter from KTPB or Kilgore College. Having solicited my application for the job they simply ignored my response.

KTPB, according to this story in Jazzweek, appears to have ended its broadcast run in 2006. Most of the people I met while interviewing for the job of Programming Director in 1990 remained at KTPB for all of its 16 years. I have no sadness or regret at having been passed over for that job — I can not say I regret having spent those years in New York City versus an East Texas oil field — but I am glad to know that those nice folks I could have worked with all those years stayed where they were, broadcasting classical music to East Texas.

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Sinking

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ASV Yearbook, 1974-1975

Sunday, March 1st, 2009 4:58 pm — Stories, Rambles, and Other ThingsComments (0)

ASV Yearbook, 1974-1975 I re-discovered an old school yearbook last year and over several months I scanned a few of its 100+ pages at a time to make the full book available to the public. There is an active alumni interest in the school but my interest lies in its uniqueness and the unusual time and place that it occupied.

The 1974-75 yearbook of the American School of Vientiane finds me in the First Grade, smiling under an Emo-esque haircut and seemingly looking around at the other kids whose pictures and names today revive memories that never left but that feel fresh and new for having been dormant so long. I am not as vulnerable to nostalgia as I used to be but the images of this strange place that I inhabited amaze me.

I had a mad crush on the girl whose picture is one up and one to the right of mine. Next to her (one to the right) is a picture of the boy whose birthday party was a mildly traumatic event for me. The other kids at the party were climbing on tractors and getting into mud fights while I was dressed to the nines in a little tuxedo. While the other kids roughed it up and made a mudbath mess of their bad selves I laid low in my immaculate outfit, afraid to get so much as a fleck of filth on it. I wandered around the boy’s enormous house and spent some alone time with a dead pig, its mouth stuffed with an apple and its roasted body laid on a silver platter. I thought the pig was still alive as the flies and moths buzzed around its face and body. I guess that was the birthday feast but I don’t remember eating any food that day.

Elsewhere in this yearbook are pictures of those kids who beat the shit out of me on the school bus, poking me in the eye with a broom stick and kicking me in the stomach. And I see the kid from my class with whom I stayed in touch as a pen pal for many years after we returned stateside.

I was too young as a little first grader to appreciate it but I browse through the book now and marvel at the multi-national makeup of the student body. The Senior Class pages show students from Iran, Syria, Yugoslavia, Thailand, Korea, Laos, and the U.S. — or “The States,” as we referred to the U.S.A. while we were in Laos. Today I live in Queens, possibly the most multi-national community on earth, and I sometimes find myself similarly impressed to be in a place among people from a dozen nations or as many creeds. The American School (called “ASV” for short) was situated on a compound named KM6. KM stood for “Kilometer” and the number represented the distance of the compound from the capitol city of Vientiane. There were other KM compounds but the only one I remember hearing of while we were there was KM8, a place I never saw but which seemed like an exotic, far-away relative of KM6.

In a 1969 article Time magazine described KM6 as “a U.S. suburb transplanted to Asian soil”, a description which fits my memory of the place. My family did not live on KM6 but many American military families did and several of the kids I knew at ASV lived at the compound. The place was an oasis in Laos, a nation of secret wars and military operations that many of the miltary personnel at KM6 knew nothing about.

Today the grounds of KM6 are used as a golf course. Some of the structures used for the school still stand but the use of the land is very different today.

As seen in an invitation to my birthday party (specifically on the inner portion) we lived at Salakoktane B-13, a street address burned forever in my mind by the sound of the school busdriver — Mr. Gnook — repeating it over and over one day when he got lost driving me home. I was the only child left on the bus as we drove for what seemed like an eternity over miles and miles of Laotian dirt roads and alleys. I had the address of our house written down and I handed the scrap of paper to Mr. Gnook. He seemed like an amiable, chatty man but his concern in getting me home was palpable. “OK, OK, Salakoktane B-13, B-13, B-13,” he repeated until we found the house. Mr. Gnook (whose name I am almost certainly mis-spelling and possibly even mis-remembering) is not pictured in the ASV yearbook.

Our phone number — 6684 — had only 4 digits, a reflection of how few phones there were in Laos at the time.

My memories of the house are somewhat more vivid. Stampedes of water buffalo — a common site in Laos — roared past outside on a regular basis. I remember a sugar cane stand up the street from our house.

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