Elizabeth Jennings

Wednesday, October 7th, 2009 3:34 pm — Passages, Stories, Rambles, and Other ThingsComments (2)

My memories of nights spent pacing the silent suburban streets of Florida were complemented today when I opened a book of Elizabeth Jennings poems and found Curtains Undrawn. This work describes the poet’s times spent catching near-voyeuristic glimpses of “modest lives”.

Curtains Undrawn

Looking in windows down a night-time street
	In Winter, I don't feel
A voyeur, no, I only seem to meet
	Lives lived with love's good will.

There is a student with an angle-poise
	Lamp. He's hard at work
In happy concentration. There's no noise
	As yet and nothing's stark

Or ugly. I've a sense of neighborhood,
	Of being near yet keeping
A proper distance. Now I find it good
	To think of children sleeping

With night-lights on. No doubt their parents will
	Later go up to bed
And make love without speaking. There's a still
	Design within my head

As if I were about to write a score
	To fit these modest lives
Where there are quarrels sometimes but no more
	Than small ones which arrive

Because we are imperfect. I walk on
	Under a full moon's stare,
Knowing that elsewhere crimes are done -
	Not here, no, never here,

And 'here' is much more usual, I believe,
	Than war and hate and dread
Since here are still lives where the trust of love
	Will never be quite dead.

Say I am sentimental. I don't care.
	The rooted tree of trust
I know is always flowering somewhere
	Where people still are just.

Maybe they could not tell you what they think
	Their lives are all about.
Philosophies grow cold, most dogmas shrink
	Here where hope's not in doubt.

I only know Jennings for having read several dozen of her poems these last weeks. I feel a presumption of decency from her, a tranquil foundation wrenched gently asunder by her travels through poetry, the Bible, writings about the Bible, and philosophy. In Curtains Undrawn I expected a foreboding rumble under the placid presumptions, but I am biased by my natural inclinations toward emotional slosh. The line “Not here, no, never here” teased me into thinking she was taking this to a level of dismay or conflict, but she stayed the course of equilibrium.

I agree with her when she says “‘here’ is much more usual, I believe, Than war and hate and dread”, though I am skeptical that “the trust of love Will never be quite dead.” She finds pockets of decency, these paradises summoned from absence created by her voyeur-like glimpses into neighbors’ lives. Calmness at the base of things is foreign to me.

Another poem, A Chinese Sage, describes a poet who whittles away his excesses and obscurities of cleverness by making a peasant woman his mentor. Anything she did not understand was excised from his work and the result, presumably, was of serene universality. I like the poem but ask: Was serenity common among ancient peasants? Is it common among today’s homeless?

A Chinese Sage

	A Chinese sage once took every word distilled, altered and perfected
In private till for him it seemed a poem, yes he took this to a peasant woman,
	Read it to her softly and slowly and waited for her rough-voiced assurance that
Certain words she could understand, others were meaningless to her. Very discreetly
	But decisively, and with no arguments, this sage crossed out every word that was foreign to
A woman of simplicity who knew labours of the soil and the house, who had no
	Dealings other than this with poetry, art of any kind, yet by his

	Magnanimity, more, his humility, became his mentor, guided him
Out of all obscurity, not with wearying argument or even quiet coaxing, but by the fact
	That she was a world he could only enter through her. Hay, beds, crude meals, lust
Subdued his wit, bodied out his verse, cancelled cleverness. And, I ask, was he
	Most poet or most philosopher in this uncrowned wisdom, writing
In the reign of Charlamagne, paring simplicities to a peace no
	Emperor was ever enticed by or even dreamed of?



















Foreboding

Saturday, May 30th, 2009 4:52 pm — PassagesComments (0)

A breeze off the lake–petal-shaped
Luna-park effects avoid the teasing outline
Of where we would be if we were here.
Bombed out of our minds, I think
The way here is too close, too packed
With surges of feeling. It can’t be.
The wipeout occurs first at the center,
now around the edges. A big ugly one
With braces kicking the shit out of a smaller one
Who reaches for a platinum axe stamped excalibur:
Just jungles really. The daytime bars are
Packed but night has more meaning
In the pockets and side vents. I feel as though
Somebody had just brought me an equation.
I say, "I can’t answer this–I know
That it’s true, please, believe me,
I can see the proof, lofty, invisible
In the sky far above the striped awnings. I just see
That I want it to go on, without
Anybody’s getting hurt, and for the shuffling
To resume between me and my side of the night."


John Ashbery

 

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Lies

Wednesday, April 15th, 2009 4:47 pm — PassagesComments (0)

Mind’s Heart

Mind’s heart, it must
be that some
truth lies locked
in you.

Or else, lies, all
lies, and no man
true enough to know
the difference.

Robert Creeley

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always

Sunday, March 15th, 2009 1:52 pm — PassagesComments (0)

Still glinting wings; the dull-red lacquer head
Lifted from its socket, turned machanically
This way and that, like a wristwatch being wound,
As if there would always be time . . .
From The House Fly, by Robert Merrill

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Black Zodiac

Sunday, October 5th, 2008 12:20 pm — PassagesComments (0)

There is a solitude about Sunday afternoons
In small towns, surrounded by all that’s familiar
And of necessity dear,
That chills us on hot days, like today, unto the grave,
When the sun is a tongued wafer behind the clouds, out of sight,
And wind chords work through the loose-roofed yard sheds, a celestial music …
Charles Wright: Black Zodiac, Apologia Pro Vita Sua, III from the book Negative Blue, p. 82

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Buk

Thursday, September 18th, 2008 4:24 pm — PassagesComments (0)

I’m not going to die
easy;
I’ve sat on your suicide beds
in some of the worst
holes in America,
penniless and mad I’ve been,
I mean, insane, you know;
big tears, each one the size of your bastard hearts,
flowing down,
roaches crawling into my shoes,
one dirty 40-watt lightbulb overhead
and a room that smelled like piss;
while your rich
your falsely famous
laughed in safe stale places
far away,
you gave me a suicide bed and two choices,
no three:
starve, go mad, or kill yourself.
for now enjoy your trips to Paris where
you consort with great painters and dupes,
but I am getting ready for your eyes and your brain and
your dirty dishwater souls;
you men who have created a pigpen for millions
to choke soundlessly in –
from India to Los Angeles
from Paris to the tits of the Nile –
you’re fucked up
you rich you warty you insecure you pricky
damned imbecile pasty white
idiots with your starched shirts and your starched wives and, and yes,
your starched lives,
get away get away
get away
go to Paris
while you can
while I let you.
the jolly damned man with the hoe (see Markham)
didn’t answer the call
but your children will be raped and your pigs will be eaten
and the skies will burn black with crows and your cries,
as you answer for centuries of
unbearable indignity and bullshit.
you will be dealt with
we know you now
we’ve known you forever;
the might of the timorous
flies forth like a tremendous and beautiful swan,
no shit, friend,
look up look up look up look up
the jolly damned man with the hoe
is now flying over Milwaukee
grinning
more lovely than the sun
more graceful than all the ugly wounds
more real than you
or I or anything.
Charles Bukowski: starve, go mad, or kill yourself, p. 308 of The Pleasures of the Damned

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Passage of passages

Thursday, September 18th, 2008 11:28 am — Passages — Tags: , , Comments (0)

Of course the point of Passages is that I copied them for a reason.

Sometimes it is safe to do so but why let them lie there, dumb museum pieces, listless zoo creatures, captured.

I am guilty of that since youth: Laying ideas out and assuming they will spread on their own.

It is a seductive notion for me. I like that idea of a mental conspiracy where influence is not reached through publication or commodity but through the air, through the breath, through our consonant-less mutterings to self that cluck and stutter like impatient pigeons.

Let me explain my attraction to these lines:

 

I would like a simple life
Yet all night I am laying
Poems away in a long box.

It is my immortality box,
My lay-away plan,
my coffin.

        THE AMBITION BIRD
        Anne Sexton

 

A few years ago I picked up a book at Seaburn Books on Broadway. The book was Sheltering Sky by Paul Bowles, but it could have been any book of a narrative genre. I had spent much of that day at the boneyard, reading tombstones, contemplating mortality and the way we remember each other.

Before stopping at the bookstore I came home to look for stories behind some of the burials I found that day.

Memory is something I will never grasp. The mechanical process, the machinations of remembering what to remember is a process littered by biases and unspoken anxiety. Memory is a critic. Memory is a filtered product. I thought about that as I spent the day wandering the paths of individuals’ lingering testaments and wrestling with random legacies.

Without articulating it to myself at the time I know now what I was thinking: How can I be remembered? How will I be recalled, if at all?

A somewhat irritating but enduring memory of a high school friend flew threw the open cage of my mind: A year or two after high school my friend from school for some reason pronounced that neither he nor I would be remembered by anybody else in our graduating class. Ever. He specifically singled out for scorn the idea that I would be remembered by anyone with whom we went to high school.

I think he was nervous about something.

When I opened to a middle chapter of Sheltering Sky, one of my day’s questions was answered: This is how someone lives forever. This is one way. Through the intricate code of words we share the energies and distortions that are our memories, and we wait for them to connect at random, thereby growing that mental conspiracy.

A simple, obvious observation that had escaped me for years.

Sexton writes of her "immortality box," reminding me of the gravestones I had seen at the cemetery that day. Her not-so-subtle demand for immortality, and my vaguely annoyed feeling that she very well attained that without having to articulate it, reminded me of that nearly mystical feeling of opening that book and feeling Paul Bowles step from the pages. "This," I thought, "is how to do it. This is how you live forever"

 I did not buy Sheltering Sky that day, because I already own a copy. Instead I bought Bowles’ Their Heads Are Green and Their Hands Are Blue, an unimpressive volume which I might take another look at now that I think of it.

 

 

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Passages: Sexton

Thursday, September 18th, 2008 10:18 am — Passages — Tags: Comments (0)

I would like a simple life
Yet all night I am laying
Poems away in a long box.

It is my immortality box,
My lay-away plan,
my coffin.

        THE AMBITION BIRD

Birds turn into plumber’s tools,
A sonnet turns into a dirty joke,
A wind turns into a tracheotomy,
A boat turns into a corpse,
A ribbon turns into a noose.

        THE HEX

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Done Reading

Sunday, September 14th, 2008 4:49 pm — PassagesComments (0)

Sitting at my table, writing, reading Anne Sexton, copying down interesting lines as they pass:

Is life something you play?
And all the time wanting to get rid of it?

from LIVE


My nerves are turned on. [...]
You did this.
Pure genius at work. Darling, the composer has stepped
into fire.

from THE KISS



I burn the way money burns.

from THE BREAST

Now what?

Reading is fundamental to thinking,
correct? Is thinking not a
dialogue with other thought?

Most words ramble past me like
ripples on a creek, but
here or there a word sticks,
a thought fills the foundation
a little more deeply,
distantly informing a
choice of words
at a now-unforeseen moment.

I am no fount of
educated quotes or
murderously comic zingers.

Rare if ever would those
Anne Sexton lines
fill my conversation,
punctuate or finalize.

Words and thoughts
pour in to my mind
like bricks and cement,
trapped and torpid.

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My rosy tomatoes pop squirting from your awful rotten grave

Saturday, August 12th, 2006 12:26 am — PassagesComments (0)

Lucifer Sansfoi
Varlet Sansfoi
Omer Perdieu
I.B.Perdie
Billy Perdy
I’ll unwind your
guts from Durham
to Dover
and bury em
in Clover—
Your psalms I’ll ‘ave
engraved
in your toothbone—
Your victories
nilled—
You jailed under
a woman’s skirt
of stone—
Stone blind woman
with no guts
and only a scale—
Your thoughts and letters
Shandy’d about
in Beth
(Gaelic for grave).
Your philosophies
run up your nose
again—
Your confidences
and essays bandied
in ballrooms
from switchblade
to switchblade
—Your final
duel with
sledge hammers—
Your essential
secret twinned
to buttercups
& dying—
Your guide to 32
European cities
scabbed in Isaiah
—Your red beard
snobbed in
Dolmen ruins
in the editions
of the Bleak—
Your saints and
Consolations bereft
—Your handy volume
rolled into
an urn—
And your father
and mother besmeared
at thought of you
th’unspent begotless
crop of worms
—You lay
there, you
queen for a
day, wait
for the “fen-
sucked fogs”
to carp at you
Your sweety beauty
discovered by No Name
in its hidingplace
till burrs
part from you
from lack
of issue,
sinew, all
the rest—
Gibbering quiver
graveyard Hoo!
The hospital
that buries
you
be Baal,
the digger
Yorick,
& the shoveler
groom—
My rosy tomatoes
pop squirting
from your awful
rotten grave—
Your profile,
erstwhile
Garboesque,
mistook by earth-
eels for some
fjord to
Sheol—
And your timid
voice box
strangled
by lie-hating
earth
forever.
May the plighted
Noah-clouds
dissolve in grief
of you—
May Red clay
be your center,
& woven into necks
of hogs, boars,
booters and pilferers
& burned down
with Stalin, Hitler
& the rest—
May you bite
your lip that
you cannot
meet with God—
or
Beat me to a pub
—Amen
The Almoner
his cup hath
no bottom,
nor I
a brim.
Devil, get thee
back
to russet caves.
A Curse at the Devil, Jack Kerouac

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