by: Mark Thomas [email@example.com] date: 10/11/95 11:46 PM
just broke my happy diet of celery and carrots to down some graham crackers. my legs are just vanquished of their strength from all the walking i've done the past few days. i really don't know why i don't just take the bus more often, or a cab, or whhatever, but i always find myself walking through midtown to my apartment up here on 78th street. it's not always the safest trip, but aside from that i sometimes feel like i'm so thin that someone could just flick their middle finger and be done with me. i have no possible means of defenfding myself against anything. but i am planning on joining a health club soon, probably the Vertical Club. and i already know what's going to happen. i'm desperately thin right now, but within a few weeks or months at the Vertical Club i'm going to look like Charles Atlas, and i will be 90% muscle or whatever, and i will just balloon into this magnificent macho man, and then i will give it up and become this bag of bones all over again, as if nothing ever happened. that is what will happen, i can feel the energy building up in the time it's taking me to make up my mind about joining this club. and it's not a matter of being physically fit or capable of tremendous physical strength -- and there has certainly not been anyone kicking sand in my face -- it's just a matter of my personality and the way i develop and then lose interest in extreme behavior. i really want to be in a club like this for the winter. but the Vertical Club has so few locations. well, this is all very fascinating, but i guess i will go to sleep now.