about to go to bed..and thinking about the
'boy' who i met tonight.
adam..
knowing full well that i'll never seem him again..
through some sort of drunken state we
made some 'connection' that seemed so
honest as it revealed itself..as we talked so long
and became more sober as the night wore on..

Updating my fellow Sorabjiites about my mouse travails. Well... I bought a new mouse, and true to form for me lately, it did not work right. When the mouse worked, the keyboard didn't. When the keyboard worked, the mouse didn't. Naturally no tech support number anywhere with the info I got with the mouse. So I call Staples, which is where I bought it. What a freaking ordeal. Finally got someone who remotely had a clue and all he could say was, "Wow! Never heard of that happening before." You'd better come get you another one, sir."

Ain't technology grand?

Danipoo... I'm much more of a salty stuff lover than sweet lover. But every now and again, I gotta have some chocolate. 'Specially if it has raspberry with it. MMMMmmmm. Oh, and as soon as Mr. Mousy gets goin' again (hopefully tomorrow evening after work) I will get back on ICQ.

*hugs* to all my buds.

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having a psychological wrestling match with the universe... it's pulling my temporal manipulation privaleges, and i'm understandably a little reluctant to accept this new state of affairs. i guess it things i've been freeloading too long, and i think i've used up my last chance...

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Home from a really great night....first time since I got to Florida that I enjoyed a night on the beach so much. Really tired so it's time for bed. I have my eye on you Jimbabe so when your back on ICQ, I'll be waiting!!

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Oh is THAT what's been glued to me face all evening. Danipoo's eye on me... *grin*

HEY GIRLY... what do Petey & I gotta do to get you to D.C. for a long weekend? I'm ready to party with my homegirl!!!!

And OH MY FUCKING SHIT!!! You shoulda seen the crop of boys dancing tonight honey!

Til next time... Now I gotta go turn the heat up a notch or two... it's colder than a witch's left tit in here. Brrrrrrrrrrr.

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falling in love and checking up on you all, as I do about once or twice a month.

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alone now. It wasn't pretty. Maybe I'll beel better in the morning. I feel sick. I hate hurting people.

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Practicing the Monteverdi Magnificat a Sei Voce with the CD of this nice choir from Hungary that I checked out of the library for free, after buying a $22 one that turned out to have the wrong Magnificat on it. What I like about them is, they're very good but not perfect.

Admiring Mark's dorsal view (no hair! a good thing)/& what I assume is his new Bose radio.( Hoping he rolls over ;) And fixintago to bed.

Sweet Dreams, Sorabji... We love ya!

feeling really, really, tired....

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Jealous...crop? boys? dancing? Ohhhh I feel a long weekend coming up soon Jimbabe!!

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Jealous...crop? boys? dancing? Ohhhh I feel a long weekend coming up soon Jimbabe!!

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YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Hello woul love to meet u

strawdogs@letsmake love.com

Please emai me back

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I see U have a Bose radio also I sure enjoy mine

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Lve to meet U 28 black hair blue eyes 160 hairey Italian

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eeew.


how icky.


last night (apparently) i rolled over in my sleep, patted her on the belly and said "I want one of these -now-."

funny, i have a belly.

thinking mark should go for it. taylor sounds like a nice fella, and he also has a bose radio.

woke up again with the entire couch shredded all over the floor. also, an empty cardboard sixpack holder chewed to bits. had to pick it all up and vacuum before i even made any coffee. looks like truck has reverted and needs a little more crate training. drat.

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Thinking there's absolutely no need for 2 Bose radios per couple. How redundant. Mark should find someone who's Bose radio-less and share. Their gratitude would cement the relationship. There's no sense of economy these days and that's why the world is going to hell in a handbasket.

ok fellas and girls... I posted 3 things to the boards this morning. None are there. Wazzup?

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Looking for PJBoy's a.m. posts & finding no sign of them. Wondering if AOLers are abt to be nixed form the WAYD board too. Or of Jim said something too naughty for public consumption... ;)
A crop of dancing boys. Indeed!

I lit a candle in my dorm room today. It's interesting how I always asumed that burning a candle would be as heavily fromned upon as insense. I'm not sure why we aren't allowed to burn it.... something about covering up other smells..? :)

The candle made me feel warmer. I think I've been so stressed, so worried about things lately...
As a friend said, "It's great when you can isolate what's bothering you and purge it."
I'm surviving.
Wow.

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Clarifying for RC... I didn't mean the WAYD section. I meant Mingle.

And I did the little hooogie-muh-bob before hand too.

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Cursing The Lag Monster, his sharp pointy teeth, his all-encompassing grasp, his red beady eyes, and everything he stands for, thus firmly entrenching myself in the self-destructive lag-spiral and feeding him in the same breath I denounce him and everything he touches.

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wishing people could just chill and not feel they had to be the town cryer.

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downloading my next basket of organic apples

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Drinking my coffee from NY...Mom finally sent me another bag of beans yesterday.

Catching up with Jimbabe on ICQ..

Watching these 2 huge cranes fight with each other in the back yard. My money is on the one with the funny waddle.

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sitting here too early in the morning, thinking of what i will do today, as to not make it a total and complete waste.
i have grown bored with hacking his e-mail. he never has anything interesting. i figured when he dumped me for someone else it was because they were going to make his life more interesting, as far as i can tell, it is as boring as ever. i think it only proves that my life is boring if i am taking the time to notice how boring his life is. i am trying to remember how long they said it would take for me to get over this. it is starting to feel like another month. he got over it in 4 days! 4 fucking days! now he comes over and says "if you hate me that means there is something in yourself you need to address" no, i could very well address this shotgun and see how your head responds.they could have a little debate or something.
one thing i do like about his e-mail, his other ex girlfriend writes him hate mail. she has got a way with words. man oh man! i love that woman.

for any one interested single black female, intelligent, witty, humorous, sex-starved (and crazed) can cook, bake, but i don't clean.
reply to address below.

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giving kymical the age old advice- it's impossible to find a man when you are actually looking for one. hacking your boyfriend's email is a sure sign that you need to get out of your current mindset. stop thinking about it so much, busy yourself with other things, sign up for a night class or something. you will not be boring yourself with the same old thoughts, and you will be surprised at how satisfying it is to apply yourself to something else. when you are least expecting or thinking about it, someone will wander into your life. works every time.

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Do you really really want to know?

Reading e-mail and typing...

Thinking of something that someone said to me today.."You'll never know true love unless you surrender to it"...but what if you have surrendered to it and it was a bad experience...why in fuckin' hell make the same mistake twice...that was my response..the response I got to that was "You have an answer for everything dont you, Danette"...then the conversation was over....go figure.

Very sleepy tonight so it's gonna be an early bed time...

For now, I gotta pick the fuckin' sand spurs off my cat who decided for the first time in her 4 years of life to go outside.

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Wating on mark i thing im in LOVE

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Waiting for mark still

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losing at Scrabble.

Badly.

Again.....(so what else is new?)

*get over it Taylor. I don't think that Mark plays that game. Although my first intro to him and this site was through his "Boner" story and I too thought he might be gay*

pitying the fool...

eating cheez-its and contemplating the enormity of the tasks before me, endless hours of labor to even get to the point where fun would be possible. so what will it be? resolving yet again to attack this or that small portion with resolve, determination, planning and discipline, or procrastinate some more...

Planning...
Plotting...
Prognosticating...

Finally came up w/a scene idea for this VC contest.Tyring to just get it down on paper
(or shd I say pixels?) w/out picking it apart too much too soon. Picturing Blindswine in a tux & a shit-eating grin/playing the Rico Suave role & dissin' all the stars in tacky clothes at the Oscars... (Me? I'll just be gawking.)

Plus/for the 1st time I had 3 numbers in the Lottery this week. Won a whopping $4.50. But maybe t'was a sign my # is about to come up...

So Wish Me Luck!!

(And if I win/Dave had BETTER come & watch my cat while Swine & I are in El-Lay.)

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going over the stories my friends email me from back home...

Wishing a certain someone would eat shit and die...

Or better yet, just magically transform into a decent human being.

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Still waiting on Mark

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Whers Mark??????

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Remembering the movie Fatal Attraction....

Trying very hard to wake up and get with it this morning. Gonna be a long day.

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listening to the sirens outside. so insistent.

thinking i should get my stuff together and go see my little yoga nazi.

Guess what I just did. I just tapped into one of the phones that you listed and did some pretty cool shit with it

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Marveling at how quickly life changes, and how much I enjoy it.

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feeling real southern, which I don't always but was driving along tonight thinking that there's a dividing line between people whose inner voice of truth, when it talks to you, uses "ain't", and people whose inner voices don't, maybe that had something to do with the Lynyrd Skynyrd Greatest Hits CD I was listening to then for the first time, which I'm not a fanatic or anything but there are certain Skynyrd songs that are just brilliant, period, and then sitting in the driveway listening to the long outtake version of Free Bird and feeling like I have transcended this mortal coil for well, 10 minutes anyway, and that ain't nothing to sneeze at

Preparing for an emotional day. Today the campaign closes shop for the last day. It's gonna be rough. For three months SOLID these folks have been family.

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recovering after reading a letter (real mail) from my former significant other. The postal system decided to hold this one for about a week so I could get a happy little reminder... She wrote it probably a day or two before I ended it.

A pox on the Post Office!

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ok... so maybe it didn't close down as planned today.. now TOMORROW is the emotional day.... LOL.... oh... and....

pj is vewwy vewwy happy... :-)

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having odd fantasies of lying out on the beach, even though it's 40 degrees and pitch black outside. hmmm, wonder why. maybe it's time for that trip to Bermuda

On the side of that open drawer viewed on the bedCam of Nov. 14th would be a good place to write down the combination of a lock that you are liable to forget.

i'm living in a purple world
my life is not ruled by clocks or numbers
everything is beautiful and has purpose
new realities constantly form
old worlds shatter with a few small actions, words, thoughts, details,
the world falls down and time stops
time is chopped up and names forgotten
all i knew or cared about is trivial, fake, finished

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Off to the couch to watch City of Angels. Aint seen it yet but people told me it was good so what the hell. Cant sleep as usual and I dont feel like going out...dont feel like talking on the phone...so it's movie time for me I guess.

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along with Dani, watching that Crow thing. the guy may be cute, but he's no Brandon Lee in her opinion. not even close.

burining her tongue on hot cocoa and listening to her new favourite band, Radio Iodine, ever heard of them anyone? it can't just be her brother and her. totally.

Mark must be in bed.

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advising saman that Danipoo was watching City of Angels.. not.. the Crow..

Although I must agree, Brandon Lee was much humpier than his sucessor.

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I like the word humpier for some reason...I'm talking with Jimbabe on ICQ right now and laughing as I read the boards..You's are all crazy I say!!!!!!

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being retarded. duh. sorry, forgot about city of Angels... the GOOD one. the Crow: city of Angels was not as good as the first onewas. and humpier is a nice word, I must say.

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wonders if he has to do a re-education on misuse of the word "retarded?"

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hopping MAD!! i lost my last three 2-player scrabble games by ONE fucking point!! fuck fuck fuck!! and i lost another one by 30 points. grrrrrr...

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hee hee. I finally won a game, by ONE fucking point. Perpetual losers, indeed. Petulant losers. Lost perpetrators. Posting lepers. Sleeping poseurs.

Retarded at times also...I like to call it a bit "slow" sometimes. There was this friend of mine that used to get the biggest kick out of my horrible spelling. He did however improve my spelling a little I guess. But he corrected me in the most respectful way so I wouldnt feel all stupid. City of Angels was pretty good..I cried most of the movie 'cause it was a bit sad. I also went and saw "The Waterboy" the other night. It was pretty funny at times. Never saw any "Crow" movies though.

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remembering having that lecture from Step-Mom multiple times, Jim, so withhold the torture please. ;)

not only do I wish I knew what Mark was up to, but I wish I knew what mag that was on his bed. if you know, page me on ICQ at 9859165.... it's as easy as pie. unless it's Playboy, then we can leave that to imagination.

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Flipping the fuck out. Ready to throw in the towel. Wishing I were uncivilized enough to punch through a wall. Or a face.

Fuck.

I get like that often, Overwhelmed. Can always punch a tree 'cause it wont do any damage and no one can see or hear you. Fucks your hand up pretty bad though.

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finishing lunch and missing my friend

sitting on her own carport, smoking a cigarette (not a Newport cuz they don't sell 'em up here in Canada), drinking a Bud (not a Bud Light cuz they don't sell 'em up here in Canada) and wishing she was elsewhere.. with her soulsister...

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"What do you say about a generation that has been taught that rain is poison and sex is death? If making love might be fatal and if a cool spring rain on any summer day afternoon can turn a crystal blue lake into a puddle of black poison scum right in front of your eyes, there is not much left except TV and relentless masturbation."

-Hunter S. Thompson

Introduction to "Generation of Swine"

11/16/98, 6:48 PM
Jim aka PajamaBoy is:

Breathing a HEAVY sigh of relief.

Broke off the relationship today. Was very painless. He was feeling the same things.

We're gonna remain friends tho.

:-)

Thanks, all, for your support.

*hugs*

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Telling Siren she outhta be glad she can drink LaBatts & St.Pauli Girl (ain't that Canadian too?) for cheap 'steada dishwater-tasting Bud -- Light or otherwise. And Newports suck no matter what country you're in.

Can't think of any Canadian brands of smokes I've ever seen... Do they make smokes in Canada? Or are they too smart for that?

Im feeling the tendon on my arm
that I never knew existed.

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A Newport smoker...always have been. Just got home from a vitamin E injection. I'm tired so I'm off to bed.
Funny thing about carports...gotta be able to trust them with your life. Lots of things can be said and done in carports. Like some of the best times of a persons life.

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