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3/1/98, 0:14 AM
sorabji is: thinking about going to sleep with my jelly doughnut. thinking that someone needs to take me off these Martin Luther King tapes. they're stronger than any drug i have ever tried. listen to them over and over and still get reduced to nothing. thinking that my butt hurts from sitting here on this spot all day. thinking that preparing postal mail is such a tedious pursuit. hoping dad likes the book i just mailed to him. looking back on a day of high accomplishment and good beer and well-cooked chicken. practiced some schubert. got that whole b-flat major inpromptu rhythm in the left-hand thing going. got quite the rhythm in the left hand going on. left. left. left-right-left. yakking up a cloud on IRC. reminiscing about a woman i really admire. if she's reading this she'll know i'm talking about her to my friends again. Maybe she knows how a story she wrote once comes to my mind every single day. i'm thinking about the never-never land of sleep, of death, of not living. of the asteroid which is flying right at us. of the Flintstones. of this week spent reading Charlie Brown cartoons and choosing the Peanuts t-shirt and tie i intend to wear to my next big-shot corporate meeting. thinking about the Executive Office of the President of these united States, and what eop.gov and usdoj.gov plan to do to me. what are they talking about?
3/1/98, 0:33 AM Danette is: J'esp�re que Wetfly a eu une p�che merveilleuse de jour..
3/1/98, 1:08 AM Ridin is: In response to Danette's earlier offer of handing down KISA to me...... K!! Sold!!!! Come to mama KISAbaby!!!!
3/1/98, 4:23 AM nate\\fock is: Rudely awakeneddd. I very responsibly got drunk early tonight so that I might go to sleep early and wake up early and be productive tomorrow. The neighborhood kids next door decided that their little keg friends needed a dj. Unfortunately I don't like these people and their dj sucked. All I can hear in my room is the rattling of everything not bolted down and random, arrythmic booms that don't seem to coincide with anything close agreeable. But, I'm a good passer-outer, so I was asleep around 10:30. And then my roommate and a bunch of our friends come back from this concert thing. And suddenly I'm thrust into this world of light when my friend Marianne comes into my room to tell me about her hurt feets and won't i come smoke a bowl with them? And i'm sprawled out naked on my bed and i wave her off and i grumble [uhfuckin'sleepin.] And she either is too drunk to realize my penis, which isn't generally visable when i'm around people, is out in plain sight, or she's politely ignoring it (which my male ego screams, IS VERY HARD TO DO.) I finally wave her off, and try to go back to sleep. Now i'm not passing out, though, i'm sobering up. i'm sobering up and being subjected to the sounds of siagon 1972 through my floor and walls. i'm thinking 'now why the hell don't i have a shotgun?' so i determine that i need to drink more and smoke more and what the hell, one more shot here. I hate living in townhouses. It makes it very difficult to firebomb your neighbor's house when you're pissed off. Fock.
3/1/98, 8:46 AM melisma is: listening to some woman singing in German on the clock-radio, guessing Mozart, trying to stay alert 'til the end, thinking about breakfast
3/1/98, 12:27 PM nate is: in pain. realizing i have more to do than is probably possible in the time given. wishing i was more productive. thinking about how crappy it would be to wake up to german opera with the audio quality of my clock radio. really into miles davis right now. wishing i had kept up with the trumpet. wishing i had learned piano. wishing i could play every instrument i got my hands on with the proficiency of the music in my head. wishing is for suckers. that's what coolio says.
3/1/98, 12:50 PM Ridin is: Sitting here wishing I had 5 minutes and a glass of milk for Nate.
3/1/98, 1:22 PM R.C. is: I am looking at Mark's Bedcam photo & wondering if he finally found God/ right there in his own apt. How'd you do that, man?
3/1/98, 2:07 PM nate is: Taking a break. Enthusiastic. Spastic. Drafted my OOM modular decomposition in about an hour. Giving myself permisson to shower and eat. Desire is a malleable flesh. Personal motivation is inversely related to pot consumption. luv,luv,luv.
3/1/98, 5:54 PM n is: Lost it. gave up on today. My only hope is to recover tomorrow by getting up really early. coffee. work coffe. death.
3/1/98, 5:58 PM Danette is: Je m'assieds ici esp�rant que la gueule de bois de Nate n'est pas au mauvais. Je la d�teste quand les gens s'imposent sur moi tandis que je suis sommeil nu. Je suis irrit� au temps pluvieux. J'ai appr�ci� ma conversation avec Nate aujourd'hui sur ICQ.
3/1/98, 6:13 PM XenakaBoom is: Tengo solito una pregunta: Aqui se vende el Pepto Bismol?
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3/1/98, 6:34 PM Je suis le nate, roi des souteneurs. is: Ma gueule de bois s'est trait�e. Je ne d�cide pas que l'intoxication est meilleure que le travail. Il est l�g�rement regrettable, mais, il rend me la sensation bonne. Expliquer dur, sans doute.
3/1/98, 8:31 PM Jim aka PajamaBoy is: Je M'Apelles Jim aka PajamaBoy. *winkelle*
3/1/98, 10:59 PM Danette is: Getting ready for bed and hoping I sleep...funny how being so over tired prevents you from getting the sleep that you really need and want. really want.
3/1/98, 11:33 PM nelly is: Listening to Otis... "I want SECURITY yeah, without it i'm at a great loss, SECURITY yeah, and I want it at any cost..." and kicking myself 'cause Rufus actually played in my town and i didn't go 'cause i didn't know "just one more time now baby..."
3/1/98, 11:37 PM Ridin is: Dani sleep? LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLO LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL!!!
3/2/98, 0:00 AM TBone is: I'm hurting. I just spent the weekend on top of a cold, snowy cabin... I've got a flu and I think my head just popped. My mother doesn't and never did do those motherly things like take me sledding and all that... I'm just manual labor. I can barely keep myself sitting upright, so I'll go to bed now. I wish it were June... I'd be moving away soon. Oh joy, she has something more to nag me about before bed... Eating her groceries again? Breathing her air again... sorry, I didn't know that was your air. I'll just go outside... argh. ~TBone
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3/2/98, 10:15 AM test is: I'm testing something here.
3/2/98, 10:42 AM Zeldas sister is: Hi everybody...
3/2/98, 10:49 AM nate is: i. entertain ubiquity. abstracted to a point of being, and uniformity. i. merge with nothing. & become.
3/2/98, 1:59 PM kymical frost is: realizing that the price of action is colosal and we are going to hell.
3/2/98, 5:07 PM KISA is: But it is you I am interested in Danette my dear. Your creativity, your imagination, the charm that eminates from the computer screen. I want you my dear.
3/2/98, 7:23 PM pathetic girl is: listening to the sounds a dormitory makes at seven pm. and grooving to some early music ala the smiths. 'heaven knows i'm miserable now...' etc. wishing my hair would dry faster, so i can go out into the cold to trek to the computer lab. feeling dazed since i slept all day...and ill from school food. woe.
3/2/98, 8:03 PM kat is: Trying not to dry up and blow away.
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3/2/98, 8:05 PM Danette is: Just watched a movie called "The Cemetary Club"...reminded me of Me, Ridin and Queenie...3 women in their late 50's, early 60's and their husbands have died. One dates and sleeps with this really nice guy and he gets all scared and runs away...the other cant forget her dead husband and she dies...the other finally realizes that it's time to say goodbye to her husband and she does...via graveside..total tear jerker but I cant wait to watch it again...each woman with her own funny and caring personality...I can just see me, Ridin and Queenie being just like those women when we're old! KISA babe, I'm about as charming, creative, and imaginative as Dr.Ruth on crack....Ridin really likes the romantic wanna be types..go get her tiger...she's ready, willing and perfectly able to satisfy that raging hormonal beast that resides inside you..Ohhhhh Ridin, work it girl! do your thang woman as only YOU can!!!
3/2/98, 8:16 PM Crapper is: I just took a big dump,with at least 6 logies.
3/2/98, 8:17 PM Jim aka PajamaBoy is: Would you believe pouring over a Little House on the Prairie website???
3/2/98, 8:18 PM Shitter is: I just took a big dump,with at leat 6 logies.
3/2/98, 8:25 PM TBone is: I'm sitting, wondering why I'm so tired when it' s only 6:30 here. I really am sick.. Ugh.. I haven't eaten anything all day. My brain feels fuzzy.
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3/2/98, 9:01 PM angry nate is: generating motivated thoughts. thinking i might achieve after dinner. chatted today with a guy in my major. he's about a two years behind me talking about how difficult one of his classes are. 215. Actually a rather easy class. I felt like telling him to drop out of school. I felt like describing (in clear and definate terms) the pain I endure when exposed to worthless folk like he. I felt like taking his soul in my tendrilesque grasp and yanking it from him, exclaiming loudly the agony he will face while I digest him for eternity. But instead I simply said, "Yeah. You're gonna have a blast in 315." And he asked me if I was being sarcastic. To which I replied, "No. It's really fun." All the while grinding the last pulpy bits of his skull into the concrete with the heel of my boot (in my mind.) Iee. I need to medicate. My violence is surfacing. This is what I get for doing something stupid like "Trying to quit for a little while."
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3/2/98, 11:39 PM Chordel is: My, Angry Nate, you sure are a pompous, condescending little guy, aren't you? Nice forced use of poetic language and refined speech.. Too bad you misspelled or grammatically mangled nearly every sentence. Before you insult your friend by asserting your superiority, why don't you work on refining your own faults? Just a thought..
3/2/98, 11:47 PM Wetfly is: right now, this very moment? wishing I could feel her cum just once more.
3/3/98, 0:55 AM Just Visitor is: looking for something to eat. I just spent 12 hours in the library reading books even god has forgotten about. I ache and I stink. Very much want a shower. Very much want some company. The Wu-Tang Clan is at it again in the alley. Anyone know where I can get land mines cheap?
3/3/98, 1:12 AM pompus nate is: Pondering my inequity. Absolutely pompus. Absolutely condescending. I'm also quite cynical, marginally intelligent, and, unfortunately, correct a little too often to maintain a reasonable hold on my ever growing ego. In fact, my ego is probably my largest asset. As for spelling a grammar, uh cun rite and speel good when uh try. I even took an advanced comp. class as an elective and aced it by writing 6 essays and turning handing them to the prof the second week of class (This is the prof who on the first day asked me, "This course really is intended for english majors, are you sure you wouldn't be happier in the technical writing class?") So I bundled up me ego, grabbed a syllabus and, over the weekend, cranked out the 6 essays she had assigned for the quarter. Monday came, 6 essays and a short letter CC:'d to the dept. chair slid into an envelope, handed to the prof, turned tail and left. Never returned to the class again. Grade: A. Probability implies I did better than 85% of the class. And me, stupit computer guy. so, yeah. I'm usually stoned or drunk when I type here. And yeah, I regard grammar as the lines in a coloring book. And yeah, spelling is for rejects who can't think, only memorize. So yeah, I think most of the people who attend this "esteemed" university don't belong here. This is a california school, polluted by twisted money hungry beurocrats and affirmative action. Most of these students are the product of california public highschools, where there is more concern about the self-esteem of the student than the accomplishments of the student. California where they've thrown merit out for tits and tan. So what am I doing? I'm trying to get this sheet of paper to get my foot in some door. I'm trying to ignore the astonishing lack of brain power all about me. I'm forced into working in groups with people who can barely tie their shoes. And what am I not doing? I'm not studying. I've studied for 1 midterm since I've been here. 2 1/2 years, 1 midterm. And that was only because I accidently missed the first 5 weeks of class. And why can I do this? Because I'm marginally intellegent? Hell no, I'm not that smart. It's because these classes are stupid. And what do I hear all around me? "Ehhh, these classes are too hard. Ehhh, I'm so fucking stupid." And what should I be doing? I should be dragging my box of munitions up to the top of a tall tower over looking the campus. But this school doesn't even have a decent tower.
3/3/98, 1:18 AM Ridin is: Helping out a friend.
3/3/98, 2:30 AM Danette is: Once is never enough.....
3/3/98, 2:35 AM PicoFarad is: Enjoying the feeling ("vision") that I will be able to think clearly pretty soon.
3/3/98, 2:39 AM PicoFarad is: Enjoying the feeling ("vision") that I will be able to think clearly pretty soon. Answering "Ridin's" question and the one of this Page's page. Appreciating the "helping out a friend" message that Ridin wrote. Surviving the Mardi Gras of '98 ragtime blues.
3/3/98, 2:41 AM Who am I? is: I'm contemplating the fact that it is all different, but strangely the same..... What's up with that?
3/3/98, 2:55 AM Ridin is: Sitting here quietly thanking Danette/Dani for her generosity....and trying to decide which THANG to work first. KISA, do me like the beast that I KNOW you are.
3/3/98, 4:03 AM B�rd Edlund is: I'm reading about Catal H�y�k while reading this page, and admitting to myself that yes, i have those "visions." insignificant ones. sometimes when something happens, i remember them happening seconds before they happen. time to sleep soon. for two hours.
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3/3/98, 7:30 AM Jim aka PajamaBoy is: marveling at the wonders of deja vu.
3/3/98, 7:47 AM Jim aka PajamaBoy is: Hoping Nate gets the help he so desperately needs. YIKES!
3/3/98, 9:37 AM Danette is: Mmmmmmmmmmm.......cum
3/3/98, 9:49 AM Xenakaboom is: Admiring Mark.
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3/3/98, 10:26 AM HAL-1 is: Wondering why I can't be like that.... Wondering why the world can't think like that hell if we all did that the world would be a better place.
3/3/98, 12:53 PM PetRock is: I am CONSIDERING going out and buying a Gateway 2000 300mhz Pentium II computer this weekend and I am WONDERING if anyone else has experience with Gateway and I am HOPING that they would be kind enough to tell me that "Yes, that is a good choice to make" or "No, that would be a big mistake". That is what I AM DOING.
3/3/98, 2:09 PM Wizard is: WATCH BILL GATES SWEAT He's grilled by senators and Needled with questions about monopoly restraint-of-trade and neat analogies from Netscape CEO Barksdale and others at Senate Committee. To be replayed as C-Span's "Event of the Day" tonight 8pm Eastern Time It's also available in screaming video at C-Span's website (C-Span.org)
3/3/98, 2:15 PM Jim aka PajamaBoy is: sending brain waves to Pete to check his Flymail if he DOES decide to buy that Gateway...
3/3/98, 2:23 PM kymical is: trying to make the d.j. jealous. and wishing i could be honest with myself that i am alone. not really wanting to go to work. even tho i am already here. really wanting to get piss drunk tonight.
3/3/98, 8:07 PM Shaw Weaver is: I'm in the kodiak lab thinking I have no life!
3/3/98, 8:18 PM nate is: Kind of upset about my postings of late. Begining to think that i should learn to keep quiet while drunk. Not that I regret the content, only the quantity. Thinking that I like Dell a lot more than Gateway, even if Mikey and Billy are big buddies. Wondering what kind of help I desperately need. Spelling help?
3/3/98, 9:51 PM kelsey is: check out the bedcam right now!! it rocks.
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