wallowing....big time wallowing i tell you...

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workin' again. and kinda glad mark's back - the place is empty without him, if you know what i mean.

going to glastonbury in two days and still doesn't have a sleeping bag.

still laughing

glad to see that Mark is back and would like to publicly appalogize for stating false information about his whereabouts on his vacation and the fact that I met him. OK, I didn't meet him, I wanted to but he never responded to the Emails.

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just me and the robot. the only people here. just me and the robot. hey robot bring me a beer. i wanna fucky fucky fuck you. get a little piece of gear. just me and the robot. the only people here.

wondering what strange stories Sorabji has brought back to town with him. My eyes are open for his open letter and my ears are in tune with his Sunday piano music recitals. Go Mark, GO!

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grazing on the phat farm and thinkin' that he might go take a walk on the goat side... it's cold and dark in manhattan.

when i woke up this morning, i couldn't stop thinking about that chubby little lady with the helium-voice from "poltergeist":

"go into the light!" "go into the light!"

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entering what I am doing at this exact moment into Sorabjis WAYD board.

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really bored hanging out at work watching the clock go by. the really sad thing is that I cannot find any sites that interest me today besides this one and I have been through the WAYD boards 1 million times today........... I am bored........ I am bored........ I am bored........ I am bored........

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in la casa de la lune.

wondering if Sorabji is going to fix the camera now that he is back in town.

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Gonna drive down to the beach and watch yet another beautiful sunset. Nothing like going to the beach all alone and walking while the sunsets. Total cleansing of the mind.

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listening to the Talking Heads, getting ready to go to bed.

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destroying the universe.

sucking up the new york air. gasping for it. and everything else self-indulgent. passing out. dead.

glad to see he come back...

wondering why her face is on fire

desperate for the sun to come out

waking up.

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getting tired of the cheap ruff toilet paper. I think from now on I am going to buy the really soft shit and break the bank so to speak.

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listening to The Cars and Janes Addiction thinking that Sorabji is unfair, his message was posted around midnight, several have been posted since yet his sits on the main page. I guess he is the hostess with the mostess.

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Yawning

Thinking I should eat something. Blah.

Now the AC is going to be fixed tomorrow. One more day and one more night of being hot. Ugh!

The Landlord is also coming by. Double Ugh! Now gotta do smoe cleaning.

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Ok. Where did my WAYD go that I just wrote???

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looking at you....

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getting ready to go home in half an hour for her holiday

glad about jim's AC

Wow. Finding it very hard to read this new font. YIKES!

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curious about the events in mark's office. if everything is jumbled, why does the cam still work? are we still on the bias in ny?

sitting here thinking that I liked it better when the last person to post had the whole screen to himself and the fact that you had to click earlier entries to see all prior entries. I don't like how you have to weed to the bottom of the earlier entries screen to see the recent post. I wonder why Mark changed this.

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licking the fun up.

thinking about an old lover i saw this weekend. a while had passed. he gave me a cordial hug and asked for a cigarette. i told him i hoped to see him again someday.

"goodbye" was his reply.

fuck him.

i live proud with the knowledge he'll never get better action than he saw with me.

enjoy your life, sir, of not-quite-as-good.

and goodbye.

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advising Jim that cleaning smoes in the District of Columbia is a felony punishable by 3-5 in the federal pen.

*smoe smoe smoe*

Thanking PetRock for the advice, but the law you cite is only applicable if you're a registered Republican. I might plan on voting for a Republican mayor, but I am NOT switching party affiliations, simply because of that outdated Smoe law.

:-)

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republican?

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wondering what the hell is going on with Sorabji.com , the site is up and down, up and down, up and down. It has been like this for a few days now. Anybody else having problems accessing this site?

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No.

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is that a photo of lucy? right on!

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getting ready to leave work. It looks like rain is on the way and I have no whipers. RainX seems to work pretty good though.

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Wishing that rain would come this way for my all my plants and flowers and trees. It rained one time for about an hour in the entire almost 6 weeks that I lived here. If it would only rain for a couple hours then gimme my sun back, I'd be happy!

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Sitting at work tired of being a loser in a dead-end job who plays on the internet all day. (Remarkably enough, I'll do nothing to change it.)

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revelling in doodie.

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mowing 50' around every structure to maintain my defensible space. it adds up to several acres but i do it in shifts. during rest periods, i am enjoying piglinks. most of all, feeling so Proud of Lucy up there.

my best friend go away. I'm lonely. but I don't want wait.

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listening to the Talking Heads ( I have had a huge fix for the 80's the last few months) and reading all the hateful threads directed at me for being such a mean and nasty poster. Tell it like it is baby, Tell it like it is.

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loving the Sheila and her Geese collection. Great idea!!!

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Looking around. Wishing I had some eggs.

Found some eggs. No longer looking around.

ALL the animals are freaking out today. I gave the 2 cats some soft food this morning...they think they are in heaven.....and the 2 dogs managed to steal it off the table. Now THEY are acting friskey. Trying hard to hold on to my coffee as all four of them run circles. SLOW DOWN!!!!!!!

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Reading all the Skottey posts for kicks and thinking what a "mean and nasty poster he is" *grin* I was about to say that either he was really sarcastic or extremely blunt. Either way, I almost find that admirable. The bluntness that is. I'm covered in the sarcasm department. ;)

Thinking I might go lay down, seeing as how I haven't slept all night due to a million things running through my mind lately between moving (on July 13), concerts (Warped Tour, Endfest), friends, job stuff, family stuff etc.

Think I'll go have another Otter Pop first. Heh. I love these things.. remind me of my childhood so much.

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Reading all the Skottey posts for kicks and thinking what a "mean and nasty poster he is" *grin* I was about to say that either he was really sarcastic or extremely blunt. Either way, I almost find that admirable. The bluntness that is. I'm covered in the sarcasm department. ;)

Thinking I might go lay down, seeing as how I haven't slept all night due to a million things running through my mind lately between moving (on July 13), concerts (Warped Tour, Endfest), friends, job stuff, family stuff etc.

Think I'll go have another Otter Pop first. Heh. I love these things.. remind me of my childhood so much.

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kicking myself and wondering how i managed to post twice :p

trying to focus...

failing miserably...

needing a break from debauchery...

i got an e-mail from somebody that said,

"you are sick and twisted. i think i love you."

how nice.

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nervous....

thnking about (what else?) men. they surround me. i am in heaven at my job....techno geeks... oh goodness me....they dress funny and have such an annoying sense of humor..... that sort of nervous humor that says they have never been alone with a girl that wanted to ravage them for their mind....

i am sick....:)

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Thinking that Mr. Swines e-mailer has pretty good taste. Headed to the beach to bake for a while. I love this heat but last night, I woulda killed for a huge breath of New York air. I got off work last night at 10:30 and I walked outside and it felt like a giant earth sized steam room. I do beleive it will be time soon to go home to NY for a visit. Possibly a friends birthday party in August will get me there. if only I could bottle some NY air and bring it back here with me.

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Hoping Danipoo stops in DC on her way to NYC in August. :-)

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Highly annoyed!!

I can't get into my eamil account and now I believe myself to be going into spastic convultions because of that fact!

At any rate... Hi I haven't been here for a while. My Garbage disposal is broken.

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Ryan is curious to know why Dani misses NY. Where is she that she misses NY? It sounds like some tropical Green Acres.

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Truth is Ryan, I dont really miss NY...I miss a couple friends but not really all that much. I do however miss the cool NY nights a little. I would take this heat over NY cold anyday but NY has beautiful spring and summer nights. I moved here to Holiday, Florida almost 6 weeks ago Ryan. I absolutly love it here. It is like a tropical green acres! People are really nice here, weather is really nice here, if you like intense heat which I do. I didnt live in NYC..I lived in upstate NY in a town called Middletown for about 6 years then I lived in a town called Pine Bush for about 3 years. Pine Bush/Middletown was about 90 minutes from Manhattan. When I go home to NY in August, I'll be dying to get back to Florida after about 2 days when I start craving a beach.

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gearing up for the second big dump of the day. oh yeah baby, it's going to be mighty powerufl.

i have a room that someone else still lives in. but i was allowed to set up a desk and a computer and boy o boy this won't be as long as i thought it was.

(see above.)

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lost!!! everything around me is changing and i don't know if its changing for the better or for worst!!!!!!!!

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think i'll go for a walk now i feel a little unsteady don't want nobody to follow me 'cept maybe you i could make you happy, you know if you weren't already i could do a lot of things and i do

tell you the truth i prefer the worst of you too bad you had to have a better half she's not really my type but i think you two are forever and i hate to say it but you're perfect together

so fuck you and your untouchable face and fuck you for existing in the first place who am i that i should be vying for your touch who am i bet you can't even tell me that much

- ani difranco

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hoping that nate is referring to a massive downloading of files and not something else....

oooowweeeee!!!

listening to ani difranco "little plastic castles" cd, but i love the other one that 'untouchable face" song is from.

*smiles @ chordata*

coming down off my buzz from all the wine coolers i downed while having a long talk with a friend, sitting on lawn chairs, under the warm summer night sky.

looking at the clock and deciding that since it's 5am i had better get a couple hours of sleep in before my friend drops her lil one off for me to watch a couple hours.

remembering that i need to email dave about the movie tonight, joe about the concert(s) coming up and otto about the 4th of july.

*yawn*

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Dreading making this 220 mile round trip drive today. Ugh. Have to take a friend to Maryland's Eastern Shore, for therapy. Fun, fun, fun!!!

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needing to scratch, but telling myself I'm too much of a "lady" to do it in this semi-public place.

two-thirty in the morning, and my gas tank will be empty soon, neon signs on the horizon, rubbing elbows with the moon. safe haven of sleepless where the deep fire's always on, and the radio is counting down top twenty country songs. out on the porch the fly strip is waving like a flag in the wind, you know, i don't look forward to seeing you again. you look like a photograph of yourself taken from far, far away, and i won't know what to do, and i won't know what to say except

fuck you and your untouchable face and fuck you for existing in the first place who am i that i should be vying for your touch who am i bet you can't even tell me that much

Ryan is now thinking about his Sarah. Where did she go?

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Guessing that the phrase for the day is....Fuck you...so.....Fuck you...

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I am doing inventory for ragland fleece at work. ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

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Now banging my head against office wall. That doesn't seem to help either.

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dealing with way to many fucking dramas.

i call to talk. it's late at night and Eve is out of town for a week. that leaves a little more breathing room for us. he tells me again that he loves me. i can't wait to see you in a week he says. i can't wait to stay up all night talking and have you fall asleep close to me. i can't wait to dance with you, sarah, i can't wait to feel your hand on my face. i have to be able to be this way with you. this is what we are about, he says.

this is our magic, he says.

i miss you, he says.

i can't wait to see you. iloveyouimissyouican'twaittoseeyouagainandbeclosetoyouagainandfeelyouagain.

and everything i want i can have. except The One. i can't have forever today. i would wait thirty years, and maybe by then there would be room for me in the garden of eden.

except that it's hard to even wait a week. especially when you're high and the lights are low and god's voice is soft in your ear.

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seceding from the human race.

i've decided i want no part of it.

getting in line behind blindswine.

once again hypnotized by the snake charmer.

when did i get into this bad habit of being stupid? i know better. i don't want to have to learn these lessons over and over again. ****.

Lounging in the splendor that is Air Conditioning.

Aaaaahhhhh!

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Wondering why I am here. Pondering my own existence. Why are you here? Has anyone figured that out, yet? What if you were here, and I wasn't. That would suck. But, I digress...

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wondering where to post the current goose gossip, not wanting to tire those not interested with the latest info re Lucy's sex life. admiring the World Cup Pay Phone exhibit--thank you for sharing that.

thankful that i escaped unharmed from my naked foray into the ova chamber this morning. i was in the shower with the Pathetic Vicodin Hound when we heard high decibel honking and ran out to check. i figured the sight of me naked would stop a coyote in its tracks, and the geese have seen it before so i didn't hesitate. but then, i realized i was in with them, they were in a snit, and i was unprotected. i very slowly backed out. the only predators about were a few bats who hadn't yet gone to the bat house for the day, so the PVH and i could have finished our bath together and used the good conditioner on our hair. bah!

stressing out. being soothed by imagining kicking a certain person until the unused grey matter leaks out of his ears... writing up the "day" kelseygirl asked for. hey kelsey, if you see this, send me your e-mail address or your url... i'm feeling too lazy to go find it.

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sparkling and anaestetizing.

it's uncanny! it's baffling! i'm bored. talk to me.

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fucked up.

good. and then i sought the many millions of people within my house.

and then i ran naked through the moon lit field. cool wet grass crunched under my feet. crunch crunch. crunch crunch. hand in hand we run away.

and now i am back. with a millon people lining the walls of my house. i am the infinite, they are mugwumps.

and all about.. naked love hell.

Glad the Frau is gone. Welcome back Nate!

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spreading open the legs of the cosmos dammit. i'm gonna break through the universal hymen and crawl back up that motherfucker and sleep sleep sleep cuz there aint no love nowhere and they exposed my soul to the elements and its beaten and bruised and ripe and raw and the shit has just gone bad bad bad. my piggy's got a problem and he's outta control he's got static on the brain, he's outta control now. my piggy's got a problem and he's outta control he's got static on the brain, he's outta control now. my piggy's got a problem and he's outta control he's got static on the brain, he's outta control now. i'm gonna jump high and hold on to the sun. (giant steps are what you take) i'm gonna jump high and hold on to the sun. (shit i hope my legs don't break) i'm gonna jump high and hold on to the sun. (walking on the moon.)

So bored I'm going to go to bed.

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So tired I cant sleep..

and if the damn breaks open many moons to soon...

the lunatic is in my head...

you raise the blade...

there's someone in my head but it's not me...

you shout and no one seems to hear...

all along, all along the mountains of the moon...

hi ho the carion crow...

all that you distrust, all that you save...

it's time to matter.

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Feeling like I am the ONLY person left on earth.

Is ANYONE out there???

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Royal Crown Revue/Pretenders/B-52's last night.

Excellent show, excellent seats.

Hot & sticky and cute men everywhere....esp. the 2 to my right.

Ahhhh, it was the WEATHER that was hot & sticky, not the cute men. They were just hot & sweaty. a-heh heh.

RCR were a revelation....I had heard OF them but had not heard them before. I give them ***** and 2 thumbs up. Yeah baby, yeah!

here. bad gas and a rifle. budweiser and the urge to kill. i am a kid again.

i'll be shaking oysters from my hair before the night is done. let me promise you i care and maybe i won't turn my back on you when i rise through the world.

blindnessmaddness

fools.

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trying to survive another sunday.

i have dreaded sundays all my life, because i have had dreadful sundays all my life. sundays are a plague. even if you named the day something else, it would still feel like sunday. if it came right after tuesday it would still feel like sunday. i can't stand it.

i will now go bake a pie to make everyone feel all better.

Hoping it's going to be a Rhubarb pie that Sheila is making. MMMmmm. But not the kind with strawberrys in it. Ok?

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gletting my brain to cool... it's almost there... almost passed out at the dinner on the grounds today, and when 376 was led, with the pauses, felt like my head would surely explode...

Somebody standing in the center of the square for the first time yesterday compared the experience with the effects of marijuana... that had never occurred to me but there is a "high"... especially on a very warm day after lunch.

Wondering why some people live while others just exist...why most people prefer existence to life and why the fuck they have to hate that little minority for being different.

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Thinking I have 2 hours and 25 minutes til this temp job is history. I have not worked on a Sunday night in over 8 years.

Aye Carumba! And I missed the Simpsons!

Waiting for my next assignment. All I'm doing is typing. Not too shabby for $14/hr.

The lawyer whose desk I am using seems to have a really nice life. Sweet kid, handsome husband, impressive credentials. Makes me feel quite inferior, but as Nate would readily say, FUCK EM!

So, FUCK EM!!!!

See ya all when I get home around 12:15 a.m. tonight.

Oh.... WHERE ARE YOU DANI??? You been MIGHTY quiet today poodle dumplin'!

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FUCK'EM!

fuckers.

Going to the zoo today. I feel like a little kid getting ready for a field trip.

Yay!

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wondering and wandering along the same lines as Jim. Where have all the other regulars gone? Not that I'm having a problem with anyone else posting here...more power to ya... Just seems that lately everyone I know off of the internet has just seemed to flipped out of the picture. Has some sort of High Tech Rapture happened and someone forgot to tell me? An email sure would have been nice......... The zoo! Hope you have an awesome time, Jim. Be careful..you know those signs they post about feeding the animals? They're serious. I once got scolded for 10 minutes followed by a lecture on the dangers of feeding them....??????? The only danger that I saw was getting a little monkey saliva on the tips of my fingers. : ) Have a great day everyone!

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laffing at the Jor... hehehe... I'll remember that... do NOT feed the monkeys.. do NOT feed the monkeys... DO feed the monkeys...

hehe

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Here! Just been busy Jim! been working more hours than I am supposed to 'cause some girl quit so now I have train this dude to take over for the girl. Gimme your ear Jimbabe, I gotta little secret for you to keep in mind while your at the zoo..Hang out with the zebras...they are VERY well hung. See, I got your back my friend....always lookin' out for ya!!! You have a great too The Jor and I'll talk to ya later Jimbabe!

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boycotting life.

dyslexic pink labia.

goodnight.

It's true about not feeding the monkeys. When I was a teenager, I worked at the local zoo in a concession stand across from the gibbons' cage (apes, whatever); anyway, people reguarly slipped stuff to them, just for the sake of getting them to grab it from them, and they regularly got sick and barfed all over the place. One of them did actually die. Give them your valuables: watches, cameras, small children - they like that.

talking to some woman.... who thinks i am not here to help her.... but to wave my magic wand and magically fix everything....

ohhhh yeah.

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waiting for matthew to wake for his next feed... just 14 days old, and he is the most perfect thing i have ever seen... i can't believe he came from me...

Thinking how cool it would be to have a 14 day old baby in the house again..thats really sweet jag...congradulations to you..

Thinking about turning 32. Disoriented, I turn to the sorabji site. Reassured that I'm not the only nut on earth, I decide to take a brief vacation. Aaaaaarghhh!

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wishing "is" a happy upcoming birthday, even tho he/she doesn't seem so thrilled about it.

*CHEERS*

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reading all about chordata in the "Order Chiroptera": PHYLUM CHORDATA

Chordates are defined as organisms that possess a structure called a notochord, at least during some part of their development. The notochord is a rod that extends most of the length of the body when it is fully developed. Lying dorsal to the gut but ventral to the central nervous system, it stiffens the body and acts as support during locomotion. Other characteristics shared by chordates include the following (from Hickman, 1994):

1.bilateral symmetry 2.segmented body, including segmented muscles 3.three germ layers and a well-developed coelom. 4.single, dorsal, hollow nerve cord, usually with an enlarged anterior end (brain) 5.tail projecting beyond (posterior to) the anus at some stage of development 6.pharyngeal pouches present at some stage of development 7.ventral heart, with dorsal and ventral blood vessels and a closed blood system 8.complete digestive system 9.bony or cartilaginous endoskeleton usually present.

anyway... with or without the tail, she still makes a pretty cute reptile.

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back from glastonbury...fields of standing water turning into ten inch deep mud, torrential rain, building a canopy from survival bags, boots and legs caked in mud to the knees, drum beats in the stone circle, red snapper loudly, fat boy slim spinning, smashed out of my face to cope with the water the mud the water water everywhere *and in my socks*, a good weekend i'm going next year

hoping normal service will be resumed in my head soon

catching up with everyone's doings...

sitting here miserably trying to pull in the reigns on these awful cramps. BAH! Returning Jims hug from my guestbook *******HUGS******* and relaying to Darwin that after they let me out of 'detention' at the zoo..i spotted a scrumptious little boy staring wide-eyed at the monkeys and tried unsuccessfully to toss him through the bars. I think the sticky cotton candy mess around his face saved him...actually stuck him to the bars where the guards were able to pry him loose from the unwielding grips of those slobbery monkey fingers....

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wondering if Sarah has ever watched The Wizard of Oz while listening to Dark Side of the Moon as an alternate soundtrack. I am sure you have all heard of this but how many have actually done it? It is pretty cool.

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knackered an goin' ome

bored to death and not looking forward to working this weekend, it will be the first time I have worked a fourth of July since I was 15 or 16 years old cooking chicken for Kentucky Fried Chicken. My company is moving to a new building and decided to take advantage of the extra long weekend (FRI) and force the MIS department into having the servers up by Monday. The Pressure is on...haha!

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feeling weepy....

a name forms on my tongue.... but i can't say it....

feeling kind of sick....to my tummy...

side effects of depression?

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it is almost time for me to away. excited about the the recklessness and debauchery that is about to ensue. it will be a much needed break from the boring old day-to-day recklessness and debauchery of my life.

i know you all will miss me while i'm gone. don't try to deny it.

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contemplating bored debauchery right here, right now.