sad I had to go over waffles' post but....

thinking about D.V.

this guy finds me on IRC one last time to say goodbye before he gets on a boat and leaves for 3 years. He's actually doing it.
He's living the dream. He's telling the world to suck it, bitch. He's just geting up and getting the hell out of this contry, this life, like I desrcibed in my 'sick of this shit' post.

He's out there right now.
LIVING
while I'm here at my desk with the new nin cd, last night thinking that it was so cool, now realizing that it's just the same old crap, it's all the same old crap, everything is old crap and we're all trapped here.
as usual.

I told him he's my new hero.
He asked me to go with him.



trapped

I asked him what the boat was called. He has no idea, he hasn't seen it yet, it's in New Brunswick, where his cats and 3 cases of beer are already on board. He asked me what he should call it.
"Sidartha" was my immediate response. (spelled wrong, I think.)

What's that? he asks. It was Buddhas' name before he was Buddha, when he was still the foolish prince looking for a way out of reincarnation. So Sidartha means searching for freedom from what traps us in this life.
He said that was just too perfect.
I'm a buddhist when I'm tired.

He says he will call me in a few years, maybe send a post card, we'll hook up.

Bodhisattva

So I'm looking at my phone.
I will be forever in the back of my mind, looking at the phone with a little spark of hope that perhaps....perhaps he will. And the other part of me will wonder if he really did get on that boat, if he really did live the dream, if I actually got to talk to someone that beautifully insane..but I will not hear that part because it's the one that's trapped. The other part has faith. He can be my Santa Clause and my god substitute. D.V.

The phone will ring

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...wondering what the hell happened to the boards, there hasn't been a post in over 24 hours. silent protest? wondering if the circle of regulars dissed the clueless? first RC and now the rest, what up with that.

wondering if Something Is Wrong. The office cam looks weird at this moment. Oh no it's just a momentary flare. That's a music stand, right?

there is something going on with the server for the message boards, other things are goofed up too.

I have a feeling the man is on it, everything is under control, and just be patient and remember your low maintenance fees.

Mark, so sorry your brain seems to be giving trouble. At least it's not ingrown toenail.

I come here when avoiding housework a lot. Right now I'm avoiding dishes. Worked hard this morning at my friend's house. Took my pup with me. My pup and her's are buds. They run around on the hill, sit on the porch together.

Qiet. Always is when three little boys aren't here. Ever hear of a house echo?

So Waffles, when does a person get promoted to regular from clueless? Or do I just become a clueless regular? Or regularly clueless perhaps.

http://www.lileks.com/institute/frahm/index.html

until the boards get running, give this a go

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Spent part of the day concerned about stray bullets from the nearby pistol/handgun range which was near a site I was mapping. Supposed to be damn hot and humid the next few days. I can deal with hot just fine, but i draw the line at humid. One of the advantages i have over the prehistoric arhaeologists is that i can choose any day i wish to be a "research day' and spend it indoors, poring over 100 year old documents in air conditioned bliss. there is something Zen-like in doing this type of research, the intense scrutiny of some one's life through the notice paid to them by local governments.

more brake problems. i think that my other wheel cylinder just went. that equals another $150. I think I will begin saving up for a new car...

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reading the NTSB transcripts of communications between JFK jr.'s plane and the tower. the last communication was
"ga ga ga glub glub ack!"

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trying to remember sending her Daniness a morning e-mail this morning. Damn I must be getting old!

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wondering what happened to the message board.

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i think mark is moving the message boards to a new server. i suggest everyone relax and stop mentioning it. we don't want mark going postal on us.

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i actually haven't done anything, the boards are supposed to move elsewhere sooner or later, but i have not gotten around to doing it.. moving the boards like a 10-12 hour project.. now what's happened is Matrixcubed.com has again disabled my account without any warning, and i was not done backing everything up for the move.

i backed up the boards as of 6/26, and should be able to set up working boards this weekend based on where everything was at that time.

i've written to Matrixcubed again to ask them to please allow me to access my stuff but they kind of don't seem to give a crap this time around.

so maybe they'll be back tomorrow, but if not it will probably be this weekend because i have too much else to do.

in the meantime, click on the link below and ask Matrixcubed what their fucking deal is.

http://www.matrixcubed.com

Awake and bored. If I could go to sleep now I will be able to get 4 hours before the next shift. I don't know what the hell my problem is, I use to sleep 5 or 6 hours a night. Now I'm lucky to sleep 4. I'm surprised I haven't killed one of my patients yet with my terrible sleep habits. Might as well go lay down and give it a try, no one else seems to be around.

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Mark, I emailed matrixcubed (politely) and here was there response:

What are you talking about? We do ot have any records of sorabji.com and you are not listed as an active account owner.
Best regards,
Matrixcubed Tech


I don't know about anybody else but I thought it was kind of a flippant response.

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oops!

there=their

ot=not

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Waiting on tenterhooks for reassuring e-mail which isn't coming. Dressed poorly. Tired, and drinking the worst coffee I have ever had in my life (McCoffee). Losing weight and gaining boobage on the oral contraceptives. Go fucking figure. Having the best sex of my life (by myself). Meowing songs out in the car on the way to work. You should hear my housemate Eric meow out "Master of the Puppets."

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thinking crazy things.
12:00 noon. 24 hours till woodstock. There is still time. It would cost me over a whole week's pay. That could buy a lot of paint for september. I always thought having more than one woodstock was crap. I would really love to see Insane Clown Posse. this kind of sponteneity scares the fuck out of me. it would be fun.
I dunno.


dare I..

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looking forward to the eclipse which will occur on August 11th, '99 at 7:03am Eastern time. it will be dark at and around that time on a Wednesday.
didn't want to cause the previous message to disappear but couldnt kepp myself from posting this event. Meowing out tunes sounds like a kick and a half!

...freezing my balls off in this bldg.......the A/C is way outta control...just finished updating my little web page. HTML sucks!

http://members.tripod.com/accustat/

the milk drinker told me this morning that my scalp smells like oatmeal cookies.

i don't know why, but that made me laugh so hard i almost peed the bed.

hypnotized by the hidden MS Excel feature, and wondering if you know about it too.

-Go in to Excel 97 (has to be 97)
-Start a new..whatever, I don't use excel, I wouldn't know.
-hit F5 (goto) and enter X97:L97
-now you should be at cell L97.
-hit Tab once (putting you on M97)
-hold down Ctrl and Shift while clicking the Chart Wizard button (little colored books icon, beside the globe & zoom level)

Wheee!!!!! yee haw! I could do this all day! Flying through purple land. Left mouse speeds up, right mouse for slower/reverse. Now and then a monolith screen will pass with the Excel 1997 credits.
Enjoy

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holy shit, that's cool.

does Bill Gates know about this?

.....and they wonder why MS programs are always crashing..........with crap (fun crap I might add) like that who is surprised

Preparing for Drunken August (tm)

It's two weeks until my birthday, 4 weeks until my best friend (jules) birthday and 5 weeks until S and T (the girlfriends of Andrew's friends) birthdays.

So, to celebrate, every Saturday night in Drunken August (tm) is going to be funnnnnn!!

Anybody gonna be in KiwiLand around this time? *heh* You're all welcome to share in the celebration

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wondering where Kiwi land is??

message boards will be back this weekend.

sorry for all the pain and suffering.

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thanks for the easter egg, wisper

stressed after having one of those "I want to stand on top of my desk and tell everyone to go fuck themself" kinda day....

and telling myself "ilovemyjobilovemyjobilovemyjobilovemyjob" and that I should be happy and grateful that I have one... especially one that allows me financial independence, and to have the nice things that I have, and live the lifestyle I want to live...blahblahblahblah.


It really isn't that bad of a job. I've had worse, and made less.


La la laaaah.

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Refreshing Jimbabes memory..I sure did get my morning e-mail from you honey...but, I regret to inform you that no matter what kinda flowers you give me, you can not stick your dick between my tits. Reasons why are as follows:

A. I have like almost no tits.

B. Even if I did have some tits, I cant possibly imagine what the turn on of having a dick between them would be.

C. Uh, how soon we forget that your still being stubborn about cumming over to my team.

But I love ya for thinkin' about me baby.

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nearly pissing himself. I forgot all about sending you that. ROFL!

What was the last sexual experiene JFK, Jr. had?
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He went down on Gay Head

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Wishing I was Gay Head...that man was beautiful.

Waiting for my morning Jimbabe E-mail.

Going back to bed.

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Damn it,can,t one
Kennedy die by natural causes?I,ll miss JFK Jr,just a plane down-to-earth guy.

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Waiting and wanting more JFK jr. jokes. Please post or email them to me.
Thank You, Thank You.

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what is it that the Kennedy's miss most about Martha's Vineyard?











the airport



Why didn't John John talke a shower before he left NY?









he preferred to wash up on the shore.

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HAH A HAHAH AH.

jokes about tragedy help us hide our fears of sudden death.

AHH HAH HAH HA.

i was on the phone with jello the other night. i says "doesn't this make you want to reunite" and he says "jesus nate, it's not going to happen" so i says "howabout another run at politics?" and he says "nate, you're fucking annoying when you're high."

you talk to Jello??? Whats he up to these days? Holiday in Cambodia? No renunion? damn!!!!!!!!!!!

What was the worst thing abou the crash?A:He didn,t have Ted Kennedy with him.Even though the wedding was called off,looks like they,ll make good use of the priest.

....ouch........

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holy fucking shit.

one of the websites i produce just got sold and this morning i found out i'm getting a big fat check. just in time too. my computer that i built myself in 1995 (i was one of the first people to have a Pentium 100 Mhz chip! haha!!) finally bit the dust. i was wondering where i was going to come up with the dough to replace it. now i can, and fix the head gasket in my car too!

better still, big names are coming aboard, people who could really help me launch my writing career in a real way.


i'm so excited.

i can't breathe.

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contemplating mass homicide, just for funsies.

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responding to the two earlier posts by typing in: "Crimson, don't do it, you don't have to accept" and Sarah. . . "congratulations!" . . When you live somewhat balanced(ly), things like that happen to you. do you use Pantene? must be your clean living and thoughtful food intake.
PERSEIDS:
Read that there will not only be an eclipse on 8/11/99 at 6:03am CST but Meteor showers at the rate of 80-200 meteors per hour! "One of the years best showers peaks during the afternoon and through the night of August 12/13. The peak is slated for Thursday August 12th at 6pm EST. A secondary peak is predicted to occur around 1 A.M. August 13th but could be off by a few hours. This year we'll have a new moon just before the peak so we'll have dark skies all night.
Bring an air mattress, head away from medium size cities out to a dark-sky site."
Check out the North American Meteor Network
website link/{http://web.InfoAve.net/~meteorbs/}
(don't know if the link formula above is correct but the site's URL is within the curly brackets.

...horny...................thank you

drinking Sarah's tea, having used her face wash to get off the makeup after work. shopping online for baby clothes for my job share mate, having no idea what size children are, or their measurements, or anything they ask me when trying to order. at age two, how much variation can there be? unless you're on the Jenny Jones Show, of course.

another murder in Yosemite. nothing to do with the other three, but yet on "my" side of the park.

saw a tv news story about a man in no. cal. who started out with backyard ducks and now has 800. the Mallard hen will hatch her clutch in about ten days. the eggs that the Rouen hen hatched are all Mallards. Lame Duck had a miraculous and fruitful recovery from his fuckfest excesses. i hope they will associate with wild birds and take to the sky for migration later this year.

cheering Mark for not giving up and just letting all of us go to hell. yay Sorabji.

"bout ready to have a screaming fit, cause my modem seems to be possessed and I keep getting kicked off line. Wondered what life would be like if Bill Gates was recruited into Scientology.

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Not brushing my teeth even though my mouth feels all sticky from the Coke I had with Indian leftovers from last night.

http://www.bjornporn.com

Kiwiland = New Zealand

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Oh, there it is! This screen was all gray last time I scrolled.

Well folks, just because you're a hick living in Idaho doesn't mean nothing happens. I won a pair of tickets to go see Sugar Ray and the Goo Goo Dolls on Sunday! I can hardly wait. The Gorge Ampitheatre in Washington.

I have to sing in public on Tuesday to "earn" the tickets. I made up some lyrics to a Sugar Ray tune (Every Morning) and will sing it at a place on Tuesday per the D.J's choosing. He doesn't seem so concerned about it. He says that anybody with three boys gone for five weeks deserves the tickets.

Everybody else's suggestions were "naughty." I just think about what people did for, oh, what was the old guy's name at the "alternative" station in the Bay? Nate, help me out here. Oh yeah, Alex Bennet. Women would sit nude in garden gloves and garden hats in his audience for a whole morning to get tickets to a show.

So we drive for six hours on Sunday, stay the night at a dive on Sunday night, drive back on Monday. I don't care, I haven't been to a concert in five years. I could burst.