killing all the algae.

just caught the end of the hip hop show with ez eddie. anybody know who does a tune called "razorblade alcohol slide"?

it's not a rap - it's all scratching.

stressed out.

I am listening to a msg. from my girl in The People's Republic Of Brooklyn/on my computer/while I'm wandering thru Sorabjiland.

Now/I don't have to worry abt missing phone calls while I'm online. Or spend a small fortune on an extra phone line/or an ISDN hookup.

All thanks to a free program called the Internet Answering Machine from
Callwave.com. Technology
is truly a wonderful thang.

Check it out!

http://www.callwave.com/

back from ignoring the outside world.

had to go to Stevens point to do this (or Point Place for you "That 70's Show" fanatics). Amazingly, had only one beer while I was there. Played four player Goldeneye. I had never evenplayed the game before. I managed to take out three people. I think I was taken out at least 150 times. This is why I don't waste money on video games.


So, anyway, has NYC burned yet? I assume it hasn't, which is something to be thankful for.

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to sean...
you can always relesae and album on my label
here have a look
http://www.lo-bango.com

we just release an album looking to release another in april or may...talk to the Chaos...

we are more than happy to help you achieve your dreams of delenquency..
take it from the Addiction tho, stay in school.

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i'm fuckin' it up for everybody else.

and getting pissed

and lookin' at nude pictures of cthulu's dad

dj q-bert, droopy.

i laid down two songs this weekend.

going to put them on mp3.com.

i love me.

sleepy. sat up all night doing some impromptu comedy bullshit while being taped for a cable access TV project. it went better than i expected it to. recorded some music, too. i haven't done any major writing in the past 2 weeks, though, which kinda disturbs me.

3 days until i'm outta here. going to the beach. happy, happy.

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I'm at work again. Wasting time as usual. Had to save the big scanner's rear again.. well, that's not the best way to phrase that. Anyways. I love watching the people here.. wandering around and pretending to do work as they check their hotmail.
Have dinner plans with the SO this evening. Which is good, because I have no food in my fridge.

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To Kymical,

Sorry hon I'm not much if an art rocker, I'm into more of an orthodox form of musical expression so I'm not sure if you guys want me on your label. Love to if it's possible though. I'm not going to drop an opportunity if I can grab it.

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hating scanning right now.

and I've only just begun.

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working.

Seen on an old pickup truck being driven by a classic unshaven, tractor-driving, scruffy, farm-hick wearing one of those classic truck-driver type caps with the name of a tractor company on it:

Have you tormented the DEVIL today?

Also, a Jesus-Fish eating a Darwin Fish, and a sticker that says:

Driver carries no cash. Wife and children have it all.

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This is super duper. I actually saw someone in TBone's cam, saw someone staring anxiously at the camera, actually, while trying to conceal himself and talk on the phone. I have no idea who it was, but it was cool!

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one night i saw tbone playing with star wars dolls or something

it was fun

right now i'm covered in plaster dust

art rocker?
hmmm, i guess you could call our sham label that. who knows.
we are unorthodox to be certain. but we take all kinds.
the album to be released is like strange new techno. we are trying to find more bands to release on the label tho....if you are at all interested, like i said write the chaos.

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maybe we have something worht your time, maybe not. maybe i am just a big liar and i just like to make myself seem important.
we ain't no capitol records if that is what you are looking for. but i hear Spin is looking for someone to critique stuff or something.

put together a little something and send it to Alternative Press, they will review it in a heartbeat. been there and done that. nice guy.

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all gussied up.

added two songs to mp3.com today. yesterday. someday.

anyway. i think they clip. someone let me know.

'gangsta soul'
'studio (i'm high)'

check them out.

especially if you're straightedge.

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www.mp3.com/etan

At work. Just like usual. I'm guessing that this is going to be a usual thing for me. That being posting rambling thoughts while at work.
I got a nice fortune today at the chinese buffet my friends and I go to every Tuesday. It reads: "God has given you one face, and you make yourselves another." It's a quote from Hamlet. (Slightly modified, I believe.) I was pleased with this fortune.
Today is a task day. I'm not going to do any real studio work. (I am a sophmore in Graphic Design.) By task I mean stuff like grocery shopping and laundry.. fun stuff.
Back to work.

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I,m wondering how I can find Nates songs on MP3?

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urselkie: J wants to know how to find your songs on mp3
b00gnsh: www.mp3.com/etan
b00gnsh: or search for etan
urselkie: nate, i fucking know that
urselkie: it's on WAYD right now
b00gnsh: oh
b00gnsh: yah.
b00gnsh: oh
b00gnsh: sorry
urselkie: s'okay
urselkie: maybe you should just pop this whole dialogue up on wayd
urselkie: or maybe i will
urselkie: right now

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TRYING......to read the prologue to Zarathustra and listen to 'Trane's OHM at the same time.

next to impossible

Today my week old request was filled....

next, it's Lou Reed's Metal Machine MUsic.....all 4sides of the double album set.....

this amuses me. not only is the music outta sight, Elvin Jones being one of my favorite drummers...but to think of the various ding dongs out there, who don't understand or appreciate this music....to see the shrill in their eyes....like finger nails and chalk boards....imagine peeling each one of your finger nails off, the WHOLE thing.....with a pair of pliers. THATS is what this music is to me. Somewhat sadistic i know.

My band, befoer we moved, once got drunk one sunday afternoon, and played the college radio's local music show...in a similar fashion. Complete with bizarre and manic tape loops, random moog expressions by yours truly in addition to some cymbal work.....we had no plan, no interest, no motive other than to appease our buzz, and make a few schmucks in their cars or at home rethink they way they view music and order.

if you think about experimental music, albums like the aforementioned, Lou Reed's, Mile's Bitches Brew and On the Corner, The Dream Syndicate, Tony Conrad, John Cale and John Cage......it seems so ahead of it's time, EVEN TODAY.....with the exception of some very rare japanese music....such as the Boredoms....very little of this organized chaos is available.......

http://members.tripod.com/accustat

Even now, i an still hear the scanner grumbling...will the horror stop?

Actually this wouldn't be so bad if I didn't have a mack truck of a deadline barreling at me.

Me best friend just evterd me in a Powell's Books contest, in which you have the chance to win free airfare out to Portland and a $300 shopping spree at Powell's. MY fingers are crossed HARD!

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lusting after coffee at bedtime, and listening to Sean watch a full-length realvideo(r) copy of Vampire Hunter D. Subtitled, not dubbed.

Got some celebrex for my back today. Freekin' back hurts like all hell.

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wednesday is my day off, usually. it snowed last night; i'm going to let the geese out to forage, call dear Gwen to see if she is ok (i had a very very very bad dream in which she shot herself in the head), figure out what to wear down into the funerary cave tomorrow, try to eradicate all smart-ass thoughts from my head, as my first year evaluation interview is scheduled for thursday afternoon.

there are at least three ganders trying to mate this year. i cannot tell if the less aggressive birds are younger ganders-in-waiting or if they are females or if they are pacifists for ethical reasons. i know there will be hundreds of ova to find and remove. Lucy is still the reigning matriarch, but there is one white goose, new this year, at whom the big guys are leering suggestively. she is bonded to a female African friend, but she has made a nest. wait and see. Lame Duck is in full breeding plumage, strutting circles around his six hens. hey, last year he couldnt't even waddle. now he is a high stepper with an emerald iridescent head, flashy white wing patches, and that anxious look in his black eyes. there are weasels. the hens will have sex with each other if he isn't available. the nesting space is spread out so he has to continually make the rounds to monitor everyone if they are brooding. if males are hatched, he has to decide whether or not to get rid of them. what's not to worry?

the daffies are blooming; i'm so ready for spring. lots of projects down at the plant; they assign me all the cases no one else wants to work with.

thinking that if not for sorabji i would never have known of the intense sexual behavior of water fowl

and waiting to hear robert irwin talk tonite

just got off the phone with yet another prospective employer. interview tomorrow morning for a web production job. please help: think good thoughts for me. prayers, offerings, animal sacrifices optional.

Reading "In the beginning was the command line" on my Handspring Visor while I wait for various computer things to finish happening at work. A random quote:

This is exactly how the World Wide Web works: the HTML files are the pithy description on the paper tape, and your Web browser is Ronald Reagan. The same is true of Graphical User Interfaces in general.

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Drinking an Aecht Ochlenferla Rauchbier and loving every glorious, ashy undertone. I ponder the chili that I ate for dinner and I wonder when my intestines will meet the master.

I'm getting ready to sleep. I picked my SO up from school just to take her home. How nice is that? I prefer the term "considerate" rather than "whipped", thank you..

Moosehead is some good cheap beer. Really.

Sleep well.

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you're just another fool with radical views. you're just another who has madening views.

WTF are you doing up so late?It,s 2:30 A.M. here so it must be 5:30 where you are,you look cute and tired.You are hyper ,I,m hyper too,I was smarter than the other kids and my teachers knew it ,but having ADD.didn,t really endure myself to my teachers,thank God my principle thought the sun rose and set in my asshole.I think I mentioned this today,I,ve always had a thing for older men,my principle started out as a subsitute teacher,I was in second grade but I had the hots for him even then,he let me get away with things that anywhere else I,d been kicked out of school for.What little time I spent in highschool was a whole different story,I remember being called to Dean Liptons office and she measured my skirt,I was showing too much gams,suspended for 2 weeks,right after that was when that fucking Ms.Best slammed that math book on my head,this is where my impulses really fuck me.I decked the bitch out before I even knew what I was doing.I was a good kid,a campfire girl,candy striper at a nursing home,allways made good grades,cleaned the house for my mom,kept my dad company and played cribbage with him.I hate to say it but all the time I was trying to protect my family I was just enabling them.When I got that D.W.I,,,the court didn,t send me to A.A.,I



had to go to Coda,a 12 step program to help make me more asertive and to quit trying to rescue these assholes who only caused me pain.Amee called me collect a couple of weeks ago,and I didn,t accept it

WTF are you doing up so late?It,s 2:30 A.M. here so it must be 5:30 where you are,you look cute and tired.You are hyper ,I,m hyper too,I was smarter than the other kids and my teachers knew it ,but having ADD.didn,t really endure myself to my teachers,thank God my principle thought the sun rose and set in my asshole.I think I mentioned this today,I,ve always had a thing for older men,my principle started out as a subsitute teacher,I was in second grade but I had the hots for him even then,he let me get away with things that anywhere else I,d been kicked out of school for.What little time I spent in highschool was a whole different story,I remember being called to Dean Liptons office and she measured my skirt,I was showing too much gams,suspended for 2 weeks,right after that was when that fucking Ms.Best slammed that math book on my head,this is where my impulses really fuck me.I decked the bitch out before I even knew what I was doing.I was a good kid,a campfire girl,candy striper at a nursing home,allways made good grades,cleaned the house for my mom,kept my dad company and played cribbage with him.I hate to say it but all the time I was trying to protect my family I was just enabling them.When I got that D.W.I,,,the court didn,t send me to A.A.,I



had to go to Coda,a 12 step program to help make me more asertive and to quit trying to rescue these assholes who only caused me pain.Amee called me collect a couple of weeks ago,and I didn,t accept it

breathing somewhat more easily, having been painfully unplugged here in the Midwaste, and painfully immersed in a family endurance contest, a family from whom I have been eliminated through divorce, and I especially dislike being emotionally intimate with family who have rejected me. So onward! Prayers, lies, explanatory pauses, saintly intercessions, animal sacrifices (vegetarian animals only) and golden balls of stuff for your interview this morning Miss Sarah. If you ruined the blue top, go topless (good with black skirt).

not yodeling, in any way shape or form.

I'm eating french fries.

drinking a glass of reggiano rosso - not bad for �3.50 from M&S

embracing the beginning of maple syrup/sugar season........yummmyyyyyy

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what are you looking at?

wondering why the links posted from WAYD automatically go back to sorabji........mark is toying with us again i suppose.......


see for yourself

http://www.x-muse.com/guests/models/pat_nico/pnn.html

cancel that, feeling like an idiot. my deepest regrets and apologies..........

drinking unpretensious beer, even if I can't spell worth a damn.

I have the best job in the world now.

I'm stalling before completing the last question on my midterm. Class is in 45 minutes. I think I can do it.

My brain hurts.

Listening to PJ Harvey/John Parish's "Dance Hall at Louse Point" (good stuff, this) and fighting off sleep.

waiting for my dad to show up. maybe go see a movie tonight. What's that one -Drowning Mona or something? I'd like to see that.

At first I thought my innocence was dead
Then I realized it just got bored and left.

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done struggling. just done with it all.


surrender to the flow. let it come to me.


from this point forward. starting right now, when i click that little grey button.

wishing more people would come to that conclusion.

What button? Hey I'm just chillin gout in nothing but my boxers and I have reached the conclusion that being a swinging and slovenly bachelor is the greatest life on earth! God I lve binge drinking and not doing my laundry for two weeks. Which reminds me...

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What button? Hey I'm just chillin gout in nothing but my boxers and I have reached the conclusion that being a swinging and slovenly bachelor is the greatest life on earth! God I love binge drinking and not doing my laundry for two weeks. Which reminds me...

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sitting on staplers and watching my life waste away this afternoon.

repeatedly jamming this bic into my ear i had a revelation.

well


not really.....



rather


not at all


it just hurt

Sean, the button you just pressed twice.

My co-workers all took off early. It's all nice and sunny. Damn slackers... I wanna slack too.

And I do, I guess. My aim was to work about 4 hours a day with school, but that slides down to 3.5... 3... 2.5.. really fast.

Also, I've been getting into pirating books lately. Collecting copyrighted books. Its wonderful. So far, it's just been books that I at one time owned, but have lost.

Gonna set up an e-library underground... or rather, A friend will, and I will just actively add material.

I'm not really well focussed right now.

I wanna be outside. Really really bad.

That's it. I'm outa here.

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eating baby scallops and medium shrimp in a white sauce concocted by a friend, homemade onion bread from a friend, everything from a friend, eating, friend. end.

what is it with Sean's lately? It's like they're all coming out of the woodwork just to drive me crazy.

My brother's name is Sean. As if that isn't bad enough, I suspect a friend of mine is secretly in love with his friend Sean. The boy I had a huge crush on last summer was named Sean. and I just met a Sean in my science class (musician, plays bass in a band, really pretty blue eyes).

the world needs more Shawn's, I say.

Wow! I thought thee were rleativley few Sean's in the states...but in ireland...man do I blend.

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One of my high school chums is named Shawn. Great guy.

one of my closest friends from college (and ex-rommate) is also Sean.


Of course there are tons of "Seans" in Ireland -it's the Gaelic translation of John (no "j"'s in Celtic tongues.)

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Ok.

The new Rollins Band album ROCKS.

Everyone should listen to the last track, Illuminator (L. A. Money Train). Fucking hysterical.

I don't know if it's hormonal but lately I have been turning back into rocker-boy.

Long as I remember, rain been comin' down.
Clouds of mystery pourin' confusion on the ground.
Put me through the ages tryin' to find the sun.

And I wonder, still I wonder who'll stop the rain?

I went down Virginia seekin' shelter from the storm.
Caught up in the fable I watched the tower grow.
Five Year Plans and New Deals wrapped in golden chains.

And I wonder, still I wonder who'll stop the rain?

Heard the singers playing. How we cheered for more.
Crowd had rushed together tryin' to keep warm.
Still the rain kept pourin', fallin' on my ears.

And I wonder, still I wonder who'll stop the rain?

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