Heh.



AAARRRRRGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHH!!






*sigh*

I'm eating pasta that my best friend made for me.

it's so nice to be cooked for.

30 days, 30 days, 30 days.

since or til?

hoping that the topic of following news item is viewable here. ". . .The Firesign Theatre PBS special was shown on many PBS stations that December.

NEW SHOWINGS
March 1, 11:30 PM on
Southern Oregon Public Television
March 30, 9:00 PM on
UNC-TV in North Carolina"

re-arranging the furniture.

trying to not wake up the neighbors.

discovering all kinds of things about this neighborhood in the overnight.

Dylan was born at 12:34pm on 2/28/2002.

Yes.

Yay Uncle Mark!

wishing mark would write some stories.

wishing mark would write some stories.

what are you doing?

if you ate nothing but celery, you would die. same with cotton candy.

I like candy floss. But I always get it in my hair.

when i was a teenager, i had a job at a cotton candy stand - stuck in a box in the texas summer with the cotton candy machine going and blowing red wisps of spun cotton everywhere, getting in your hair and on on your hands and making them red and sweet. at first i'd pop some of it in my mouth, but then i learned to loathe it. to this day i still loathe the stuff.

then they moved me to the popcorn stand, and i learned to loathe buttered popcorn. it was common practice for the peopled who worked popcorn stands to make themselves a batch of unbuttered popcorn first thing in the morning. it doesn't take long for the taste of fake butter to turn you off it forever.

popcorn is nice with m&ms

till.

27 days until I move. So very excited am I, and so very very unhappy to go home every night.

I came home from my friend's house last night and called him. I couldn't make myself stop crying. He said "But Melanie, you'll be moving in 28 days!" and I said "But I'm here now!"

he felt so bad for me he told me to come and stay with him for the rest of the month. and I said "If I thought I could get away with it, I would." and then when I went to sleep I had a dream that that's exactly what I did and I was so happy. when I woke up this morning I felt so bad that it was only a dream that I couldn't make myself get out of bed for at least 30 minutes.

now I'm at school. I don't have any classes for another 3 hours, but at least I'm not at home.

home is not where my heart is.

Responding to the intelligence report that ". . .The Firesign Theatre PBS special was shown on many PBS stations that December.

Dang! How'd I miss that?
Maybe PBS isn't completely useless after all. I'll check my local listings.

losts of things and nothing at all.


im pretty riddled with anxiety.

im also pretty depressed but much of that is self inflicted....this much I acknowledge.

Much of the damage has come from how i THINK i should feel after being called idiotic over and over again more than the actual name calling itself.

But still.....


Im worried...I hope this loan comes through otherwise were in trouble.

Im pretty sure my libido has been reduced to that of a dribbling leaky faucet as opposed to the gushing waterfall it once was.

Some say alcohol kills your libido, which may be true buts its never been a problem.

I think been called names repeatedly has more to do with that.

It seems like weeks and Im afraid it will snowball from here.

Im afraid a lot will snowball from this point forward and for that, i wonder how much I can take.

Are you referring to
name calling here or at
home?

asking Happy Andrew if he will let it be known if he finds the PBS listing for Firesign Theatre

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sitting at my desk, midnight again, still wondering if I want to get another job. Ever again. Thinking about that dentist's appointment I keep forgetting to make.

my friend called me in the middle of the afternoon just to tell me I'm cute.

:)

my friend. I think I'll keep him.

Changeing diapers for my mom,hell has come home.I wonder if she knows how much nicer I am to her,than she was to me? I can't smoke inside now,and I'm afraid I'll blow us up.She has too much money to be eligible for many programs.I have made an appointment with a fidurary lawyer.Doctor appointment at 9:30.She won't eat and she can't shit and why is this my probblem?

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in a state of decent happiness.

I just got three images selected to be in a group gallery show.

moreover....they were selected by Laurie Pike, indie actress, magazine publisher, former host of Ooh La La...i needed this to boost an otherwise recessive confidence.

Dear Queen:
The only listing I'm likely to find is for Washington DC and environs (Montgomery County, MD; Northern Virginia). But sure, I'll let you know.

I think we're all bozos on this bus.

hallelujah baseball's back!

on hold with the evil doers at this collections agency.


THIS is my war on terrorism.

damn itchy.

Visiting sorabjiLand for the first time in a looooonnnngggg time. Read some of the recent messages and I notice things haven't changed.

Good to see all of the characters : J, patrick, fellow Canadian Gee, Agatha, Czarina, Sem, Nate, Spider, Dave, moonit, sarah, Jim aka, droopy and the last but not least R.C.

All of you bring a smile to my face.

I will try not to a stranger anymore.

P.S. Patrick....how did you like that USA vs Canada hockey game? I got to watch it in a bar in Tampa and it felt good to be the only one with something to cheer about :0)

welcoming Maple Leaf back.


eh...it was an ok game. US was two steps behind the whole time. Canada earned it, good for them.

sorry to hear about Cujo

Thanks Patrick.

It was better than an "OK" game...it was fning fantastic......we are still partying up here... it has been 50 years since we finally won at 'our game'....NOW.....if we could just win at curling.

You are so right about Cujo....major disappointment.

loving alcohol, just loving it.

i was glad the canadians won this olympics. i didn't want the u.s. to win anything this olympics. at all.

i may have broken up with kevin, but i'm getting back together with alcohol. what a beautiful reunion.

I hear you Sarah,and I'm so upset I can't pass out,believe me when I tell you that's not like me.My mothers birthday is the same as Erma Bombeck's.J loved Erma

Olympics aside Maple....we have a nitty gritty contest going on here in the Pacific div and Western conf for playoff spots with the Kings struggling to hang on.

If you're still celebrating up there, perhaps you could keep some goons from Edmonton and Vancouver out late at some point....



i understand what you say droop.

coordinating to attend a photography/architecture exhibit, symposium my studiomate is in at SCI-arc Institute.

Hoping CZ and J are having fun together.

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the grass is always greener over the septic tank

Eating Chips

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Green grass is prettier than brown, dead grass.

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WTF?

"J loved Erma"

Is Erma dead?

Erma is dead,and so is my mother she passed away last night some time between 10:30 when I called to check on her and 10:54 when my brother called to say she was gone.I don't even have the words to say how I feel,her birthday Feb.21 was the same as Erma's...This is the most horrible thing I have ever been through in my life.My heart is broke.

Awwwww damn J, I'm real sorry for your loss.

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wondering what he would be doing if he werent doing this right now.

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still wondering what he would be doing if he werent doing this.

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J, Im so sorry to hear that.

My condolences, J , I
tried to send you a note
but it got bounced
back. Our thoughts are
with you.

listening to sound bytes from Firesign Theatre

httpwww-personal.umich.edu~thinkersoundsalincoln.aiff

after seeing The Spanish Prisoner on IFC.
What a great movie.

At the moment, I was looking out the window of my 3rd floor dorm. Its 623 AM and only a select few are wandering about, especially in this cold weather. I keep thinking that maybe theyll look up and give me the finger despite the fact that Im not looking at them. I just finished a bag of Pepperoni Pizza Combos, the only thing I had to eat today. Im suppose to be studying for an exam but I think Ill go outside and have a cigarette first. The cold seems to make me more alert after being up for more than 48 hours at a time. The cold and nicotine, that is. Whenever I try to sleep, my mind is blitzed by a thousand thoughts about anything and everything. One thought was that I needed to go to the bathroom, which I actually didnt do nor did I need to do.

J, Im so sorry for your loss.

Im so sorry about your mother, J. Im keeping you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.

My condolences to J. Just want you to know were here for you if you need us. May the blessings be with you and yours.

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listening to the Chieftains do Mo Ghile Mear with Sting. Christ, if the chorus to that doesnt give you goosebumps, I dont know what will. Definitely looking forward to their new album coming out -- supposed to have a lot of good people on it, Sinead OConnor, Elvis Costello etc.

Hang in there Janny. It gets easier, trust me. As someone who has lost a parent...just be strong and patient, time heals.

My thoughts are with you.

Warmth.

eating stouffers
macoroni and cheese

is thinking about crying out for help. The problem is that his cry for help sounds like Whaaaa Whaaaa which is indistinguishable from his regular cry.

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in a bit of pain....saw jon spencer blues explosion last night courtesy of judah bauer. turns out a friend is a sibling of his. not as good as their past shows and with this, he agreed with nico. afterwards at the bar...he and russell drew quite a groupie crowd. i was surprised. jon doesnt go out apparently. i thought about that polaroid of him i sent you spider. his other band, 20 miles i think it was called.

stayed out too late, ate too little and drank too much.

the battle with the evil-doers at the credit and collections agencies seems to be winding down. all but a few scatter details remained holed up in financial caves.

its a solid victory and small business loans may proceed.

everyone who has seen autumnwinter insists its the absolute shit.

feeling like a thirsty sommalier.

at home taking care of more personal battles todays including the aforementioned pain.

now if i could just get the cocksuckers at the property management co. to fix my god damn disposal so my sink doesnt look like a gutter anymore id be alright.

making a dress.

i wish i had cool stories to tell like patrick does but i dont so im going to shut up now and go ride my bike in the sun.

wishing my bike didnt have a perpetual flat tire so i could ride like pez.

Just got back from a 2nd interview, now Ive got to go back for a 3rd. What the fuck is this place, Ft. Knox

Mark comma just curious comma but why don apostrophe t all of the punctuation keys work in this WAYD board question mark

back.

its fucking cold and the weather is schizophrenic. so far its rained, hailed, sunshinyed, thundered, winded.....

but my bike. its kickass. most of it is an old schwinn colligate, blue and girly. i put a three-speed kickback c. 1986 on for the rear wheel, its nice because it has coaster brakes. its a pain in the ass sometimes because i dont know a whole lot about bikes yet, and its sat outside in the oregon weather for who knows how long. a very cranky rear wheel, its just waking up. its been in and out of the bike shop for the last couple of weeks, the rear wheel likes so seize up so i cant pedal at all. but if i ride it hard and keep it out of the rain otherwise, it can fly.

im planning on taking the chain off and completely cleaning it and relubing it before i put it back on, then im going to get a new front tire its a little cracked up. once thats done ill scrub off all the rust and touch up the paint and shine it up real real nice.

i hope its not too much work because im lazy, but itll be a good way to bond with it and ill value it even more.

i want to raid my dads workshop because he got all my grandpas tools when my grandparents moved to the retirement home. i could get some screwdrivers and wrenches, start keeping some tools under my bed instead of nailpolish and hair dye.

corresponding.


you might recall about 6 months ago i was making an inquiry about mY great uncle's b-17 bomber group during WW2.

About 6 months ago, I posted on a message board, putting out all the info I had, in hopes that one of the ole fellas would stumble across it.

Well, I got a bite.

I've located one his tail gunners who keeps in touch with other members of the crew.

Thus far, I've learned my uncle "was a hell of a pilot" kept them all alive. More photos, and details will be mailed to me soon.

Im about to pee my pants. I can't describe the exhiliration and pride of hearing about my uncle and what an extraordinary pilot he was in one of the most dangerous wars for bomber pilots ever.

Those guys in the b1s and b2s have it easy. They probably havent seen a lick of flak thus far, muchless clouds of it, fighters swooping around them etc.

Watching curling on TV.

The national championship for Canada is this week. There are 3 games every day on TSN (Canada's ESPN). Morning, afternoon and evening for 7 straightr days..

While hockey is very important to Canada, curling is a very close second. Curling was the brunt of many jokes during the Olympics but if you were given the opportunity to understand the game you would appreciate the attraction.

J....very sorry to hear of your loss. My thoughts are with you.

saddened.

hearing reports from Palestine about the military search and seizures going on in Ramallah. Not to mention all of the bloodshed.

All men and boys over the age of 12 being rounded up, stripped, interrogated, held, naked for many many hours. Branded. Some released, some not.

Wondering what i would do, if I were a Palestinian.

Im pretty sure I would have taken up some kind of arms. Not exactly sure what, but something.

What would you do?

Israel is not only shelling known rebel hideouts, they are rolling into refugee camps, destroying homes, for the 2nd time for so many.

Why the fuck is no one stopping Israel?

What Israel has done is no different than what Iraq did to set off the Gulf War.

The only thing stopping the world from reacting
appropriately is the USofA.

relieved.

the summer catalog is finally done and ready for mailing.

its not huge since we are breaking up the seasons into 4s, as opposed to "Autumn/Winter" and "Spring/Summer".

Its more work on our part but the mrs. seems to think it brings more light to each of the 4 sets of clothes.

I probably agree. This weekend we shoot autumn. Im a bit leary as I'm modeling the mens, which strips me of certain controls such as the final look before the shutter is snapped. Im having to rely on two others to art direct and snap the shot. On top of concentrating model wise, I will still have all the technical whoha in my head....considering we are shooting slides, out doors, precision is key.

Im not sure who, of the sorabji folk, are still in our database, but maybe you'll get on in the mail. its nice and colorful. better than the last one.

Hey there, pretty girl. Time to get up.

wondering what the hell spider's post means.


always awaiting the rocket launch tonight, despite my objections. the way the weather has been, we should get a spectacular show!

Thinking about Patrick's post about the latest barbaric act by Israel.
Over 200 Israeli Army reservists have refused to serve in the occupied West Bank and Gaza Strip. You can read more about it at
www.villagevoice.com/
issues/0134/solomon.php
or search "refuseniks" on google.

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im about to visit the wacky-paki's down at teh corner for food

Damn, that was weird, power outage. Entire block went dark for 10 minutes. I was rummaging around for matches and a candle then poof, the lights came back on.

drinking Sam Adams Spring Ale. Word to the wise, skip this one. Not one of Jim Koch's finer creations. In other news, going out for Japanese tonight. I hear that softshell crabs just might be on the menu tonight. MMM spider rolls. Woof woof woof.

in a state of being kinda bummed that Gruden is leaving the Raiders.

I'm Wondering . . . Does anybody else think it's more than just CORPORATE Merger Between Carly Fiorina (CEO of Hewlett Packard) and Michael Capellas (CEO of Compaq?)? ? Everytime I look at the dude, I'm reminded of Mr. Public Adultery himself:. . . . . . .

R U D Y !!
A fellow CEO would make some kinda Ultimate trophy-wife/girlfriend.
But at least the dude is out-front enough to show his bald head without the world's supidest looking hairpiece.

exhausted.

took kids to willowbank.

rgh. i want a back rub, and someone to fetch me strong alcoholic beverages

watching http://www.firesigntheatre.com/bergman/index.html

seeing an ad for JIMINY GLICK interviewing Rosie O'Donnell ToNiGhT! 10pm Eastern time on COMedy Central ! what a hoot!

Baking caraway-cardamon-dill bread and boiling dead and corned beef in preparation for baking it in a brown sugar-soy-ginger glaze...and then eating...

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celebrating St. patrick's
Day. Listening to
some speed metal/
Cape Breton stuff by
Ashley MacIsaac. Just
got back from Zeno's
Pub. I had to leave
because not only were
they starting to serve
green beer, but after
the Step Dancers got
off the stage, the
freakin' DJ started
playing disco!!! I was
so ashamed. I'm going
to see Amelie again in
a little while with my
friend Bridget, but now
I am consuming a
Guinness.

I hope to god none of
you are drinking green
beer.

The one only time that I drank green beer,I had green poo,and you can just tell from looking that that wasn't a good thing.

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ew.

I went to an irish pub yesterday and ate chicken kiev and naughty choccy cake. Karoke was happening, and it was frightening.

for some morning fun, see if you can find what's wrong with this picture. Might take a minute, but look closely, you'll find it:

http://www.jaybill.com/~jaybill/article.php?articleID=49

sitting in my class learning how to send email and going nuts...blah! can you believe people still dont know how?

www.zfilter.com

I'm getting there, but I still can't figure out where the zipcode goes.

replying to Patricks saddened post above. The reason Shrub is not intervening is because he doesn't want to lose the Jewish vote.

irritated and dizzy.


yesterday the model for our autumn catalog totally and completely flaked. Fucking CA natives....NEVER FAIL. They always always always flake.

One of my biggest pet peaves is when people don't do what they say they are going to do.

she didnt even call to say she couldnt make it.


she's 24. probably took some X, or did way too many lines the night before, was too hung over to give a shit and will probably call on tuesday with some cockemamy story about being food poisoned on thai food.

angry sam said that was the biggest excuse of all the "talent" for Elimi-date would use.

They would get cold feet and when the PA arrived to pick them up day of and they inevitably would say they got food poisoning and were sick.

All he had to do was get on the phone and say "Cut the shit, i know you're hung over, have cold feet. Get your ass in the car, I'll buy you booze, biscuits, whatever it takes, just stop shitting me about the thai food and get in the fucking car".

This usually worked. Seeing as how you don't pay these people, they can do this.

We couldnt afford to pay this girl, only give her sweaters and prints. Fair trade she agreed.

Bitch didnt show.

So we packed everything back up, and mille nico bought angry sam and I stiff margaritas and drinks. Stayed shit housed for the rest of the day.

Seemed to be the order of the weekend.

Friday night after margaritas and nachos, went back to Jim's to bang on his kit, smoke his pot and run around his million dollar home like a bunch of 13 years olds on a sleepover.

Ended up stripping in front of Nico and Lauren and jumping into the pool.

It must have been 45 degrees out and the pool heater was off. Talk about shock. Being drunk diminished most of it, but still.

All of this may explain why Im dizzy today.

Calm. shhhhhhh. I need to poop and sleep.

eating yoghurt-covered blueberries.

Man, talk about sweet!

Just surfing and waiting for 5 bells! Going out for a quick butt and a couple of Mentos!

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staring at the monitor.

on st paddy's day, i celebrated my completely non-irish heratige by not wearing a scrap of green. i went to help at gracie's www.gracies.org brunch where i wore a green patterned apron and made coffee and chopped vegetables to use in green eggs and green potatoes served with green pancakes and green juice. nim made a new rule that anyone not wearing orange got slapped with a wet sponge and i was lucky top avoid this predicament.

later i went to work and came home exhausted.

i got a book on making vegetarian sushi from the library along with david boring and some maison ikkouku books. and another on making books that do things and serve various perposes.

i am going to a life drawing session tomorrow and am going to attempt to make vegetarian sushi to take along. i'm going to make two batches i think because i don't know how many people will be there and it's a good idea to allow for mistakes.

inviting you to the group gallery show, where I have 3 pieces on display, this Saturday.

Thanks for the invite Patrick, but can't make it out this Saturday. Post pix though.

hell i wish i knew =P

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dinking around on the
net

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bored and lonely and sick of Arabic and tired and whiney and what the hell kind of language is Arabic anyway?

wondering why the american flag patch on US military uniforms (shoulder) is always backwards.

i know that if you fly a flag upside down (or stick a flag stamp on an envelope in that position) it signals distress. obviously, it would look correct in a mirror, but what would be the point of that?

the usual

wanting some Cure....my cats purring and needy in the crook of my arm, this bullshit outside my office to go away, the mundane work i do for a scrappy pay check to cease and a blow job.


thank you.

cancelling the lie about wanting a blow job. pretty sure i dont care for one.

thank you.

fucker fucker fucker fucker fucker. i was going to draw nekkid people tonight but the fuckers didn't want to. fucker fucker fucker fucker fucker.

grr. grr grrrrrrr fucking grrrrrrrr.

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wants to know why a heather at some college in washington thinks that my email address is hers

no i do not want helpful mailings from bed bath and beyond

being excited about the website.

ansy for tonights game.

weirdly titillated by my dreams.

Who can take a sunrise,
Sprinkle it with dew?
Cover it in chocolate and a miracle or two,
The Candyman can, the candyman can,
The canydman can cause he mixes it with love

When a man's an empty kettle,
He should be on his mettle,
And yet I'm torn apart.

Just because I'm presumin'
That I could be kinda human,

If I only had heart.

I'd be tender - I'd be gentle
And awful sentimental
Regarding Love and Art.

I'd be friends with the sparrows ...
And the boy who shoots the arrows

If I only had a heart.

Picture me - a balcony.
Above a voice sings low.
Wherefore art thou, Romeo?

I hear a beat....
How sweet!

Just to register emotion,
Jealousy - devotion,
And really feel the part.

I could stay young and chipper
And I'd lock it with a zipper,

If I only had a heart.

sitting here in
Chillicothe, after 2 lare
beers, 2 dewar's on
the rocks, a basket of
wings, and a veggie
pizza for 16 bucks.

Half off at Applebee's
is such a good thing.

Hey, we found a pipe
today. It's probable a
thousand years old.

cool sem! *puff puff*

i worked all day and found that somebody messed with my case. re: gamecube games mixed with xbox games. it sucked. and how come i'm the only person there who seems to know how to spell??????

not caring.

I am a rock.

A rock feels no pain.

And an island never cries.


Doot doot doot.

tired.

stressed.

the game was awesome.

Kings whipped the defending Stanley Cup champs.

Drank a lot of beer.

We have our shoot tomorrow. A bit apprehensive. Shooting a girl i've only met once, drunk at a Halloween party, who is absolutely gorgeous and should do well, but still, have a billion things on my mind.

the house is a wreck, needing groceries so bad, but no time to get them. after the shoot

I'll have to get ready for the gallery show.

Sunday is little H's 4th birthday party....

so much to do!!! so much to think about!!!


i just need to sleep.

singing:

"...i am a rock,
i am an i-i-i-land..."

trying not to be miserable

yeahyeahyeah
http://www.waz.easynet.co.uk/

hating tourists

hating the hundreds of tourist pictures im inevitably in simply by walking down the street

hating the media frenzy that is currently happening.

mobility around here is so god damn difficult.

secretly hating the hundreds of internation entertainment photographers that are roming around with cameras that i want and need for more important things than taking stupid celebrity pics.

hating that im in such a rush for no apparent reason that i can't proofread the simplest of mispellings.


Im going to cry now.

I will fabricate a reason for crying and blame it on you.

i feel like crying too. or even better, screaming. you can blame it on me. or rio

Agnus dei, qui tolis peccata mundi, miserere nobis.

Agnus dei, qui tolis peccata mundi, miserere nobis.

Agnus dei, qui tolis peccata mundi, dona nobis pacem.

Feeling low.

is lower

today at 8pm pacific time my 29th year begins.

heather gave me a pipe as yet uncarved.

what to do?

Birthy Hapday Nate,
29th
wot to do ?
smoke it !
Glick Fix to celebrate Saturday now on Comedy Central. 9 pm central now.

hairy birthday, nate.

dona nobis pacem.

Catching a buzz and thinking the people on that Psychoexgirlfriend suck.

thinking that an Andrew
W. K. show would be
pretty awesome to see.

Going to go catcht the
early show with a
couple of buds. I was
out til 12 lst night with
the women's studies
grad student. If only
she wasn't moving
home to Syracuse and
then down to Atlanta for
her ph.d...

happy birthday, dave and nate!
sorry that's it's one day late.

(aries boys are oh, so great)

Spider! I found Mule's
first cd for $3 today!

visited asbury park, nj today. just plain surreal. if you ever visit nj, make it a point to het there.
it's just amazing.
http://members.tripod.com/gowen2/

i thought aries boys were assholes.

grant us peace

fraking out over the fact that tomorrow is Monday. Not only is he fraking out but he's freaking out as well. Is there no end to this vicious cycle. Week after week the Mondays come. He begins to think, "Someone needs to put a stop to it," but then decides against thinking such things. "What if someone is reading my mind?" he thinks. "No. That's impossible."

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you know andrew is an aries.

Happy b'day Nate and Dave

Yay, Sem!

The best songs on there, are, IMHO, "I'm Hell" and "Drown."


"Drown" veers into Scary Preacher territory, which is what gives it its appeal.

grumbling.


my feet are sore.

im exhausted. i feel gross.

junkfood and booze.

im getting nothing i need, nutritionally and otherwise.

yesterday was spent in a sea of 4 year olds and a Spiderman jump-around.

"He's married? *gasp*" I heard (about) more times than I can count on one hand.

Single mothers. Single hollywood mothers have a fucked up way of looking hotter after birth...

maybe its me.

im starting to develop this attraction to women who have given birth. I know in many cultures this is viewed as a huge asset.

I don't know whats happening with me.

Maybe im other cultures.

I flirted without ever saying a word to anyone other than my buddies.

I love my new shoes despite the fact they are making my feet bloody while i break them in. They give me an addition two inches putting me at 6'4".

Because L & C were so stressed during the birthday party, i was often asked to watch Miles. My 14 month old pal. Next to a few close family members, he is warm to me, doesnt freak
when his mom or dad walk away. Simply put...We Hang.

I almost wanted danger yesterday.

Im ashamed to admit today.

*sigh*

im pretty confused and my emotions are pretty rattled.

I want to break something or someone, im just not sure which.

I hink parents try to hard. This birthday party was just too much and too many parents are selfish assholes. The kids say and act in the most vile ways and their parents just shrug it off saying "thats the way he is".

K and his big shot connections....sometimes Hollywood people who have the ins and outs really really depress me. For all the shallow reasons you can think of.

Keanu Reeves is a big friend of K's and was supposed to show up, but apparently he had to fly back immediately to Australia where they are doing another Matrix.

Scott from Anthrax showed up.

Who are these people? Why do i care. Do I. I don't. I don't speak to any of them.

Speaking of metal...I heard the new Rob Halford, (my pal C is doing their next video), and I was blown away....this makes old Judas Priest sound like nursery rhymes.

Not that ANY of this even matters in the slightest.

ARRRRRRGGGGH.

That's today. That's me
right now.

Shitty weather, getting
NO RESPECT from our
crazy lab supervisor
and her boyfriend. I
wish they would
disappear. What a
huge mistake we
made hiring her. She's
fucking nuts in a bad
way. God, she's got me
so upset and i NEVER
get upset.

Listening to Miles'
"Agharta" which I
picked up for $14
yesterday. It's helping,
but not as much as I
need it to.

I desperately need
something good to
happen today.

still waiting for
something good to
happen.

I forget my mom's
birthday yesterday, so I
ordered a spring
bouquet sent to her.

I can't seem to get
motivated to work. I just
want to go back to bed.

"you have no new messages"





!)#&!()$&_!!(*&+()*&!!!

I booked tickets to fly back to W.Virginia and have my mothers ashes buried next to my dad at the end of April. She'll be in a rosewood box,I hope the rosewoods are in bloom then. I'm still like in shock.

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That is the most
goddamn scary Big
picture I have ever
seen.

plus, I just found out
that Quarashi, who
sound way too much
like the beastie boys,
are icelandic! Could've
fooled me!

it's a chocolate chip
cookie day. still need
something good to
happen.

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My mother is flying in from Boston tonight, and I am preparing for her arrival.

I'm also scrambling to get all my work done before the end of the day today, since I am taking the rest of the week off.


Even while scrambling, I still make time for you. Aren't I devoted?

I meant a dogwood box and the dogwood blooms,and I meant to say thank you to all of you for your kind thoughts to me during this hard time.Thank You:)

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Sem...Did you know that Mule is partley from Michigan. Remember WIG? Well WIG's first singer ended up starting MULE.
I'm pulling my hair out over this Chris Cornell/Rage split! What happened? NOOOO!

Sitting on my couch with my laptop and trying to dispatch a headache through force of will.

Also, waiting for the pizza to arrive. It would have been here by now, but I forgot to press the "confirm" button.

I'm listening to some of the music I bought while in San Francisco. I'm not sure why I spent so much money on music. I didn't get anything I couldn't have found at Rockin' Rudy's.

My hand itches like crazy. I want to tear the scabs off with my teeth, but I think that would only lead to pain, regret, and more itching. Fucking dog bites.

Responding.
Moonit says:
you know andrew is an aries.

Actually, I am a Sagittarius--the most philosophical of all the signs. Anyway, I don't believe in it. I think it's a bunch of bullshit myself. But I tell you this, man, I tell you this: I don't know what's gonna happen, man, but I'm gonna get my kicks before the whole shithouse goes up in flames. All right. ALL RIGHT!

Semillana: "Agharta" is the shit. Stay with it.

J: I've lost both parents
in the last seven years. If you want to talk, just let me know. I'm here.

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Dear Andrew,

Please excuse me for mistakingly thinking that there was more than one Andrew in the world. I'm not sure how you managed it, but you seem to change shape and form and have masqueraded as an ex of mine, and also my friend Sharon. However in that incarnation you were tall and broad, and in mine you were short and fiery.

Love,

Moonit

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Dear Moonit:
Of course there is only one Andrew, and it is me! All shall worship! It is law!
I am neither fiery not broad. I am, however, rather strange. As if posting to this site wasn't evidence enough...

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ah, back to jury duty farce.

Tomorrow night, I go to
see Hank Williams III.

ah, jury duty no more.

Dear Andrew,

Strange is my middle name.

Love
Moonit

Hank Williams III is going to be playing shows with Erik Koskinen! Don't know where or when. Williams is also in a hardcore band playing bass with Pantara's Phil Anselmo.

What am I doing? I'm sitting in my fucking car in front of my apartment, that's what.

My key is safely locked inside on the neck-strap keyring hanging from my bedroom doorknob.

How am I accessing the internet? Well, I have a wireless card for my laptop, and happened to have them both with me. We hang an access point in a window to share our net connection with our neighbor in the next building over.

I'm pretty good at picking locks. But I've never been able to pick the one on my front door at this apartment.

So I guess I'm heading off to work early today.

checking in before
heading out to see HW
III.

Got the "just be
friends" spiel again.

i ordered a pizza

and got the breadstick things that heather likes

but she isn't here yet

i don't know when she'll be here

but if she reads this, maybe she'll be here faster

because i have the breadstick things.

dammit!!!

back home after going to lifedrawing in southeast.

3 blocks+13 blocks+50 blocks+50 blocks+20 blocks=136 blocks=roughly seven miles, one way. which means 14 miles to southeast and back, and i went to the pirate ship beforehand (roughly 3 miles one way) so that means i've biked around 20 miles today! which means i should hurt all over! but i don't!

i haven't been riding around with my headphones on lately. i like to listen to my bicycle's squeaks and creaks and nature around me.
i pay so much more attention to this bike than the others. if a person could be intemate with a bike, i'd probably want to with this one. it's old and cranky but when we get going we fly. pedaling along, singing snatches of beatles, lite 80's and motown. i want to get a small white plastic basket with flowers and put either a small boombox or a walkman with speakers in it and play motown most of the time on the way to mt tabor or somewhere for picnics. maybe a little bit of bis or gorillaz too, if i'm hyper. which isn't too hard.....

hungry. I should have gone to sleep hours ago.

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is it too late for me to hug J?

Shit man, back to smoking. Broke down and bought a pack today. 5 weeks shot to hell.

Finished chicken alfredo dinner. Having a smoke also. Wondering what I should do with the rest of my evening -- constructive or non-? I choose non-. Too much work already this week.

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tea drinkin', hell raisin'

my friend lins from england is here and she's bloody lovely old chap.

no she doesn't talk like that!

She's a chap? How does that work?

I'm smoking pot.

I'm coughing a little

Now I have to go pee

hank rocked like
nothing else on this
planet.

If he comes to your
town, you should not
miss him, and if you
do, I will kick your ass.

No, shes not a chap and shes gone now.

Wave goodbye

All stories based on 7 basic plots.

The word for today is potato.

http://www.u46.k12.il.us/co/klein/pot.html

Those are some awesome potato stories. Thanks Ms. Potato Head
!

I woke up this morning and it was winter.

fuckit.