still awake. Why? Why?

listening to 30 seconds' worth of Calexico's "Black Heart" over and over and over again.

I must have this album.


I also am dreading (without good reason) going to the First Communion party for my best friend's youngest sister this Saturday.

I always dread going to dinners / parties / events with her whole huge family, and I always have a good time when I get there, so why do I always dread the next one?

trying to recover from my allergies. Goddamn allergies...

Also, doing my semi-regular yearly check into Sorabji to make sure everything is as I left it.

If it isn't, you'll be hearing from me!

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unwrapping all my new knives. I got a $240 Sabatier 14 piece cutlery set for $24. These are so great, my other ones were cheap thin metal blades stuck to plastic handles. On these the metal goes all the way through the handle. woo-hoo!

like kazoo and her sharp bargain i too scored a bowling ball and nifty bag for $5. The fingers are near-perfect fit (may need to enlarge them ever so slightly, but the placement is perfect).

So now im thinking of ways I can take the name "jason' engraved in it and make my own.

Obviously its the name of the ball.

FOLKS, Wake up folks.
JIMINY GLICK has a new and better than ever season that started last night on COMedy Central. I rolled and rolled.
He looks great!

eating Sugar Smacks and
contemplating getting
dressed for work.

Thank you Jeebus that it's
Friday.

What a wierd day this will be,today in my e-mail I heard from a guy I went to highschool with my freshman year,my only year at Alhambra High.He always had a crush on me,even after I ran away from home,mom said he'd come by asking about me.That was the year I became a Mormon and went to semminary school,he thinks I'm LDS and I'm more like LSD,hehe.He was alot shorter than me,I just liked him as a friend.After Jerry left Amee and Orion at Christmas,she really got her act together and I'm going with her today on her inspection for the house she's buying just 2 miles from me.Now when I babysit I'll go to her house cause Orian breaks something here on a daily basis,that little dude is sure cute,but he has the worse temper of any kid I've ever seen,sometimes I think she should have named him Damion.

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Fuck, its hot

freaking to the stock market channel. trading to the oldies.

trying to decide whether or not he should buy a new car today or clip his toenails. Man. What a tough decision.

http://AbsoluteRobeo.com

Watching "American Movie" The Making of Northwestern oN IFC.

IT'S ALRIGHT! IT'S OK!
THERE'S SOMETHING TO LIVE FOR!
JESUS TOLD ME SO!

sick. General icky stuffed-up swelled-glands sick. Possibly an ear infection. Time to go to a doctor.

rooting for truffles.

Jesus,that guy I went to high school with is wierd,he thinks he use to be my boyfriend and he wasn't,I was just nice to him, like I was to everyone,I was like a foot taller than him.

sad. my grandfather died yesterday. on my dad's birthday too.

I am so sorry, Kaz.

I'm sorry Kazoo, losing your grandfather is tough. I lost both mine this year.

I wish I could give you a hug.

Thanks guys.

doing the cheeseburger and fries thing for lunch.

Nothing like a lukewarm cheeseburger and fries along with a room temp Sprite.

Blah....

Awwww...look...it's Petey.

Awwww...look...it's Petey.

cursing this shoulder pull.

High on the internet.

I got that new Calexico album! (Feast of Wire)


spring is frozen, now I'm stuck in low
wrapped with wire
tapped to the heart
can't find the poison
now I've got no cure
fangs are stuck inside my skin

payne county line
watching unjust claims
one man's righteousness is another man's long haul
sentence carried out
long haul
counting the miles to the four corners of the world

spring is rusted shut
faith's coiled and cracked
apparitions worth their weight in gold
scratched in metal
name erodes away
hands are scarred
heart is charred
burnt through and ashen

trip on fence post line
sifting through the remains
one man's close pursuit is another man's last chance
make it through the divide
last chance
suffer the weight or get buried by this
black heart
sweeping over the land
black heart
crawling its way to the four corners of the world

trying to start fewer sentences with, "i saw this website..."

Listening to "Barbarian Whores" by Otaku.

waiting for my friends to come online on msn and listening to Brian May

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Trying to get over it and failing miserably.

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standing right smack in the middle of 29th street listening to the subway roar past and hearing bruce sing mansion on the hill through these headphones. feel all weirdly emotional tonight. almost home, where i'll sit out on the fire escape and race through a 6-pack and get real cold when my heart rate slows to a cheap thud.

I'm starting to wonder about all those really terrible/responsible questions that your parents constantly ask you. I don't have a degree, I'm not in school, and I'm happy at this exact moment...even if my cat is giving me the silent treatment.

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Hello Mother Earth
The Third Stone From The Sun

Wishing Agatha and the other girls here a Happy Mother's Day.

enjoying a refreshing glass of cold V-8 with a twist of lemon and some cracked black pepper and celery salt. MMM.

my puppy is being a pain in the ass. She barks at everybody walking by from behind the chain link fence and scares them shitless. I call her the "tard dog" now.

Happy Mother's day? Why, thank ya, and right back atcha!

Dougie, that is my fantasy beverage.

replicating Notus Lotes. Why oh why does it take so long?

Agatha, now that I go to BJ's wholesale club, I'm never without my V8. I get 4 of the industrial-size bottles each week. I think it's loaded with sodium -- just like Campbell's soup, but it tastes so good!

Doing what I do best.I'm almost home...Oblivion!

hearing the bland hum of ignorant lunatics on the george noory show. some crap about the crystal children. this makes me feel like eating chap stick.

Among twenty snowy mountains,
The only moving thing
Was the eye of the blackbird

Levon, Levon likes his money,
He makes a lot they say,
Spend his days counting,
In a garage by the motorway

Enjoying the rainy season

Wondering what Patrick thinks of the SPURS!

Im'm sitting here in my Family Room waiting for my Master (Yes, a BDSM Master!) to come back online after dinner.
He lives in Cape Cod....
I'm working on my website (Linked) and surfing around the net and looking for inspiring lil tidbits! I had a $95.00 Surf and Turf dinner at a nearby restaurant. I'm stuffed but happy!

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http://mywebpages.comcast.net/preesi/Begin.html

wondering what the next person who will post here is doing. It doesn't really matter what Robeo is doing for he is only concerned with the actions of the next person in line. He wonders to himself, "If this person was behind me at the grocery store, would he or she bump me with a shopping cart?" I guess only time and/or uncanny coincidence will tell or maybe not.

http://AbsoluteRobeo.com?sorabji

watching tractor pull videos on TV in a cheap motel room in daytona beach. $35/night gets you a big room with full kitchenette and a view of the giant resort hotels being built down the street which will eventually swing the wrecking ball through this place.

wasting away again in margerita ville...
I am currently begining hour 5 in front of my PC, with no end in sight... There just isnt anything else to do

trying to recover from two 95+ degree days in the pool with two crazy little girls

trying to recover from two 95+ degree days in the pool with two crazy little girls

sunburned.
and possibly tanned, for the first time in years.

if i do have a tan, i'm going to be sooooo pissed.

listening to the fireworks.
It's holiday weekend (Victoria Day) and the yokals are already setting them off before dusk. Probably drunk. Everyone in the country is drunk right now, that's why they call it May 2-4, even thought it rarely falls on the actual 24th.

It's time for my traditional phonecall to friend's answering machines, in which i leave long messages pretend to be Queen Victoria thanking them for the nice birthday gifts.

they love me.

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reading these posts, obviously.

Hola, Dani! Long time, no C.

How've you been? I haven't seen Jimmy around here lately either...what gives?

satisfied with her paper and realizing that maybe the calc exam would go better if she slept a bit first since, even though she is awesome and superhuman in her drowsiness transcending powers, she may not last until noon tomorrow when all is due, although she still kind of wants to try because 51 productive hours would be really fucking cool...

I stepped in a pothole Sunday and sprained my ankle,went to ER,got vicodin and crutches,I'm not getting around to good,but I don't care.

hoping that J's ankle gets better. I am also trying to decide what to do with the rest of the day besides school work. I'm at home in Lowell and my new-to-me car is calling to me to drive it. Where? I do not know. I have an errand to do later that is less than a mile away. Blah! No fun.

school sucks, and my car is crashed. life sucks

I am pooping on my toilet. I am picking my nose. Want some?
Love ya sweet thing.
call me at 911-5984

letting the chap stik sink in. listening to a todd adult video commercial on the radio. strangely missing the cheap motel room from last night. jack harris is still on the air here in tampa? i'm sleeping tonight in the bed that sits under my kindergarten diploma.

Saying hi to Sweetie Petey! I havent heard from you in ages but I chat with Jimbo every so often and I always ask about you.
Whats new? Anything good you want to share with me?!?!? Please e-mail me at [email protected]
I actually managed to keep in touch through out the years. The people here are basically good people. I especially admire Agatha & Dave because they appear to be good parents....like me. Hard to believe but I am like the biggest fan of my one and only child...Kim. Words cant express what she means to me and what I do to be the very best Mom possible.
I have done very good with her. I'm proud each and every day. She is my Angel.
Anyway, write me and clue me in on your life. It's been way to long.

Saying hi to Sweetie Petey! I havent heard from you in ages but I chat with Jimbo every so often and I always ask about you.
Whats new? Anything good you want to share with me?!?!? Please e-mail me at [email protected]
I actually managed to keep in touch through out the years. The people here are basically good people. I especially admire Agatha & Dave because they appear to be good parents....like me. Hard to believe but I am like the biggest fan of my one and only child...Kim. Words cant express what she means to me and what I do to be the very best Mom possible.
I have done very good with her. I'm proud each and every day. She is my Angel.
Anyway, write me and clue me in on your life. It's been way to long.

Sorry for the double post. Dont know how it happened.

poopy is funny, sloth says. i

poopy is funny, sloth says. i like to fuck

This morning I thought to myself that it has been a while since I've been sick. Not since the fall, really.

Now I'm getting a sore throat. >:(


It sucks when you're sick enough to be unhappy but not enough to justify staying home from work.

destroying the world with my mind.

well, trying to.

you can't feel it?

not even just a little?

*sigh*

Having no clue how the [email protected] got here but it for sure was not from me.
There are actually times when I reflect on the last several years and I dont have anything bad to say.
Even though I dont know someone personally I can still make a compliment on what I have read here over the years.

The things that a person has...or has not done in their lifetime does not make them a good or bad person.
So I feel safe in saying that I admire certain people here..like Dave and Agatha because they have posted many beautiful things about their life as parents.
I also followed Patricks postings as being an expectant Father and I admire his willingness to share them here.
When Patty shared the birth details, I was very happy for him also and I wish him and his wife all the best.

I have said this before and I will say it again...I'm sorry about me and alot of you not getting along in the past but the truth is, I'm getting older every day and I am so happy for the years I have been here at Sorabji and was lucky enough to read about your lives.

The truth is...I would love to meet some of you in person and have you at my home. I actually have several net-meets per year and I really aint as big of an asshole as I may appear to some of you....alright, most of you.
But, the fact is, that I live about 30 miles from Tampa and would love to meet any of you.
Please forgive me for any cruel words and know that you all mean a little something to me.
Thank you for reading this.

Feeling so uplifted from just having viewed the 5/4/03 N.Y. appearance of
GORE VIDAL on "Book tv."
sponsored by the New York Society for Ethical Culture Website:
http://www.nysec.org
His new book: "Dreaming War: Blood for Oil and the Cheney-Bush Junta"

http://www.avalonpub.com

"Let us Restore the Bill of Rights" Gore Vidal

Leonard Lopate radio show

Thank you Dani- I'm touched! That was very kind.

Oh, and I'm eating cottage cheese pancakes a la dad, with strawberries, is whut.

Where can a gone cat get the laughs?

http://www.firesigntheatre.com/npr/index.html

Laughing reel hard

http://www.firesigntheatre.com/npr/index.html

quoting:
"Freedom is a bush on fire.
Give us a light and we'll follow it anywhere."

"ka ching!
I was shocked, horrified and litigious . . ."

sexy mules

http://www.firesigntheatre.com/npr/index.html

Listening to Ron and Fez live on Live 365.

Wondering if Bush has at least one, but two preferably for symmetry, roll-up car window American flags mounted on his official White House teleprompter.
the one that he speaks into and that all "news" networks use for the pool feed that they share to put his image and carefully voice-coached words onto when he has one of those blockbuster announcements that pre-empt programming on ALL tee vee screens except those playing a pay movie.
And how long do we have to wait for 'Kenny boy'
Lay going to get arrested? Until just before pardon time. . . . ?

trying to catch up. Jeez, do you ever feel like you've got so much on your plate, and that so many people want a piece of your time, that you'll never get out from under? Just taking a breather here from it all.

excited.

i just scored a kickass 75mm Schneider enlarging lense for under $30 on ebay.

Thats super cheap yo.

I'm so upset,having problems with my mouse,bought a new one and it still doesn't work.Myy computer says something is wrong with the mouse port.WTF does this mean and how to fix it?

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that's a drag J. Is it a PS2 mouse (round end plug) or a USB mouse? If the former, you could return the mouse you just got and buy a USB mouse. Or if they don't let you return the PS2 mouse, you could buy a serial adapter to go on the PS2 which would go into one of your serial ports. HTH.

waiting.

how did i stop last time?

Caffienating.

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www.smiththemark.org

Now I don't know what to do.

with yourself?

Waiting 'til it's time to get drunk.

I'm getting a ride to the club with a boy named Sterling.

Fitting, no?

www.lomohomes.com/lapispezuli

Appreciating the news about Wigfield, the play appearing tonight in Atlanta. contemplating a 6hour drive.

http://www.nellmedia.com/colbert/index2.html

http://www.wigfield.com