thinking sarah would appreciate this rasberry dessert wine from Bonny Doon.

i forget what they call it, but holy shit if you don't see jesus when you eat vanilla icecream drizzled with it.

if she can figure out where to e-mail me her mailing address, i'd probably even send her a bottle when i get around to sending out bottles of wine to everyone i've told i'd send bottles to.

for some reason, i can't figure out how to use [email protected] anymore.

because i am stupids.

interviewed yesterday. if they can table a decent offer, i'm bailing on this jobby job.

listening to mark's piano playing

http://members.tripod.com/accustat

nateo i would love some of that stuff. i'll sleuth around for your email. or you could just send me a regular email at [email protected]. can you send the ice cream too? mm mm i'm so greedy. in return i will send you some pineapple wine.

no, that's cruel. i wouldn't do that.

oh, and this:

http://antwrp.gsfc.nasa.gov/apod/ap991222.html

explains the full moon deal. says at the end that the difference in brightness won't be noticeable to the human eye.

but who here in human?

eating a fortune cookie.

my fortune?

":-) Personal insight requires acknowledging one's shortcomings. :-)"

yeah.

blow me.

not eating chinese again this week.

last two fortunes:

"A pleasant surprise is in store for you"

and

"A good time to start something new."

well hell, the I ching someone else knows i'm on the job prowl.

I have a headache from reading the boards. It seems like its not fun anymore. Prehaps its time for a break?

Anyway Merry Xmas everybody.

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that poor woman on CNN, hasn't she suffered enough?

but that's the thing about suffering. even if it's way past enough, it can continue on anyway.

i am drinking hot chocolate and feeling a bit on the verge of some awful revelation. My last fortune cookie said "You are very well organized". Since then i've been even more disorganized than usual, so there must be some hidden meaning to it all...

totally stoked.

a good red dress is so good for the soul.

ho

ho

ho

pondering whether or not to call up my buddy. Probably will.

I think the secret to continual mellow surfing at Sorabji.com is this:


"Sticks and stones may break my bones but Eords will never hurt me."

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uh, "Words" not Eords.

Pits and bones may make good thrones bu fnords constantly thrill me.

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Jesus, I just spent 3 and a half hours here!! Goodnight!

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just awaking, sitting here in my kimono, contemplating a bike ride to the record store

Freakin out at the bonus check I got from work. Fuck. Its almost my monthly salary. Whooo FUCKIN Hoooooooo...

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in a similar boat. i have to be "on call" to cover potential priority 1 Y2K issues over xmas. 24th-26th, 6am-6pm.

awhile back i was told that compensation would be $x for each 9 hour shift, which for some reason got stored in my head as "I will make $x for this weekend."

but then last night it occured to me that there are 4 nine hour shifts in my three 12 hour shifts. did the math in my head and oh my.

whoo FUCKIN hooooo, as they say.

especially when you consider that the likelihood of there being a P1 Y2K issue in the next three days is somewhere between zed and ziltch.

waiting for my mom and brother to get back from x-mas shopping. He left it all to the last minute, and is trying to figrue out what to get an estranged girlfriend/potential fiance.

Then I go out and pick up more presents for my parents, as I feel since I make money now, I should buy them more presents.

still drawing breath... but basically too busy living to surf the net lately. Happy holidays everyone.

Way to go Simon.

Hey, it's technically christmas eve (morning) here. woofreakinghoo!

picturing Patrick cycling to the record store in his kimono.

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Merry Christmas Sorabjites!

Life is good. What does Lawanda need? Why, another doggie!!!! We are boarding a stray puppy, blue heeler, put out the local word we have it. Now we wait and see. Simon got tired of us calling "Here girl" and "Here dog", so temporarily we named her Penny. Cute as a button, loves the kids. Farro loves her, the cat isn't speaking to us. Fish, rabbit, hamster are unanimously undecided.

at my dad's.

We do the traditional split of x-mas eve at my dad's and xmas at my mom's around here. If I ever get married, I have no idea how that will screw things up.

Well, I'M looking at the images from the camera, but there is nothing interesting (something from CNN). Merry Christmas and happy millenium ! Do you live in NYC ?

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my housemate left a treat for me this morning. it was a plastic spoon covered in a chocolatey substance, wrapped in plastic, with a little bow around the handle. it was sitting in front of a freshly brewed pot of coffee and there was a note next to it that said, sarah: you must put this in your coffee.

so i did. (after removing the plastic, of course)

and is it way delicious.

hey, everyone have a fun holiday, if you're celebrating. mmwah.



thanks for the card, nelly! very cute...

just went grocery shopping. Tomorrow we are gathering at angry sam's for an "orphan" xmas. Basically most transplants in LA who don't/can't go home get together, and celebrate the fact we don't have to deal with family drama. We have a big turkey, I am in charge of the green beans. Gallon of vodka, whisky.......et al

last night angry sam, nico and I were in one of our moods to try something different. So we went to a mexican bar in glendale, called tony's (?)......the bartenders didnt speak a lick of english and we befriended one cat named gabriel who said ".....anyone fuck wit chu, you talk to me, you guys just have a drink and have fun....." he was an ex gang member with many a story......

they thought nico was one hell of a salsa dancer...."she's pretty good for a white girl.." said the bartender, she (the bartender) danced with me too, but i upheld to stereotypical whiteboy can't dance syndrome.....i told em if they had some james brown i could do a jig or two but they didn't know what the hell i was talking about....they didn't care.....modelos and lime baabay!!!!!!

HAVE GREAT HOLIDAY FOLKS!

2am....YES!!
I'm being the first person to wish the WAYD a merry x-mas.




MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!
and
HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!!!

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recovering from one of the more surreal Christmasses I can ever remember. I awoke this morning at 6:30 to put the turkey breasts in the oven. After I took them out at 9:45, I began feeling very uncomfortable. By 10:30 I was convinced my appendix had burst, and had my mother drive me to the emergency room. Within 45 minutes all pain was gone. The diagnosis?

Kidney stones, more than likely. So I have to schedule a doc appointment next week. I have never EVER been in so much pain in all my life, and never want to expereince it again. Aside from that it was a very nice Christmas, especially since I got some new jammies! :-)

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hopeing Jimbaby feels better

tired. i go back home today. i hope things are well, but am worried that something happend to it in my absence.

i have to say, my niece is the cutest little six toothed bundle of happiness i've ever seen. and good long fingers. i'm going to have to get her a keyboard for xmas next.

just woke up from a realistic dream about a young goth chick, a music fest down the street from my mom's house, and a suspicious parent. Ther was a contest for the affections of the goth girl, who seemed a little young, but for some reason that did not bother me. I actually won the contest (This was when I knew I was dreaming for sure). Scaling the outside of her house was involved, and myabe even sex, although I am not too sure about that part.

pretty good christmas for me, although I will have to go out and get that Marley box set I had underlied as the thing I most wanted.

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made apple-oat cookies for the horses, bowls of corn and peaches for the goats, biryani for the waterfowl (they love, it, i don't know why), roasted beef bones for the hounds, hamsters for the cats (just kidding). the household is in mourning for Pay Day, the original Pathetic Vicodin Hound. She had surgery for her hip displasia, the operation was a success, she stopped breathing after they untubed her, and they couldn't revive her. necropsy shows very abnormal heart and lung tissue. thin slices off to Davis for further information. we planted a big yellow rosebush yesterday--for Pay Day. the best dog, ever.

my new project down at the plant is the Jesus Is Risen Church, operated by a raving lunatic who comes into the conference room, shows me the plans that Jesus drew, Jesus is funding, Jesus is supervising the worker bees, and yells Praise the Lord every other sentence. Jesus needs a Conditional Use Permit,a Zone Change and a General Plan Amendment. this is going to be fun. he shrieks out during our meetings that "this church is for the sinners, the whores, the drug addicts!" and he is surprised that the neighborhood association kicked him out of the adjoining county (where i live).

no snow this xmas. my sister-in-law is coming this week. i have to clean the fucking house, i guess. no Susan this year.

supafly.

Curtis Mayfield died this morning.

much love, much respect.

rest in peace.

echoing Swine's comments.

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Brandishing Wood-

Sitting in a Sugar Ray shirt that my cousin from MS sent me.

I always end up with interesting things when kinfolk from MS draw my name.

Last year I recieved a long-sleeved w\collar Garth Brooks shirt, it was black with flames all over.

It's the thought that counts....but what are they thinking?

chained to my desk today and tomorrow. It's going to be a long two days.

then it's off to Big Bear for more gluttony and self indulgence........

on xmas day we drank for about 12 hours. i passed out for a few only to wake up at Jumbo's clown room with a beer in my hand and a lap dance....in....well....MY LAP.

It was xmas gift from the wife.

Ahhhhhhh

She liked the Tiffany's ring i gave her and the Women of Bauhaus Textile Design.

We had sex in Angry Sam's bathroom. I know some would call that rude, but i think sam and his brother would be please that someone is at least not throwing up.

The green beans were a hit.

It was happy to get my hang over between 9-12pm BEFORE i went to bed that nite. I woke up fresh and headache free.

Blue monday people, we blue monday people -
And I know there's a few
Blue monday people I don't know your problems
Only you know how to solve them

-Cutis Mayfield.

sad to hear about sheila's dog and Curtis Mayfield.

Went out to the bar last night with a couple old friends - and ended up knowing half the people in the bar. It was like old home night. Pretty cool.

I got a xmas card from my pen pal today, she sent me 21 dollars (god knows why) and says she's coming over for a fortnight in August to visit. I'll have to write her back and tell her I'll probably put her to work digging, as that's getting towards the end of the field season.

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examining the scabs on my left hand fingers.

went to a party last night and about six of us went out into a corner of the yard and played guitar for four hours. straight. i played even after my fingers were bleeding. haven't done that in a long time, felt good to get back to it.

the next song i'm going to learn to play is Mississippi Moon. and an old pearl jam song i heard on the radio on the way to work this morning, but i don't know the name of it.

my new years resolution: take another guitar lesson.

Resurfacing to wish all the good Sorabjiites a happy holiday season.

R.I.P. Curtis Mayfield -- FYI Fishbone did a great cover of "Freddie's Dead" about 12 years ago.

Thinking about sending Bob Barker my carpet cleaning bill. He never said that my puppy was going to have sporadic pissing and puking episodes right after getting spayed.

Getting back to work.

well. the nefarious mayor of seattle has cancelled the y2k party. i say good for him. more people officials should follow the example. it's just another day. 2000 years since jesus was born? are you sure? who cares. it's about as exciting as watching your odometer roll over, which i admit excites me butit's not something i'd throw a global party over. people, get over yourselves and your misconceptions. it's not only y2k, it's friday saturday, sunday etc. just like any other goddam weekend.
ok, that said:

happy new year to everyone!

shove it up yer y2khole, fucknut.




damn. 12 hours and that shit *still* cracks me up.

ok.

i'm going back to sleep now for real.


y2khole.


damn that's funny.

looking for a new way to spend 8 hours at work.
work?

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blahblah

listening to my new ben harper cd and crying in my coffee still cuz i didn't get that new job.

rejected again! boo hoooo poor me.

counting the minutes, we split for Big Bear tom.work is tedious and otherwise uninteresting. not much to do in between the holidays.

(mental note, buy large bag of dried black eyed peas for new years day)

recalling alovely evening and morning spent with my wife. Sometimes, even when you are fucked up or half asleep, the best sex can be had, you tend to let go easier, conventional hang ups such as ...

-is my breath horrid?
-my pits stink?

and so on are lost..........sometimes, the notion that pot is an aphrodisiac fulfills it self with me.

I am able to transcend my body to hers, to feel and absorb her, as if we are one creature.....

and when you are half asleep, it's so dream-like, so surreal, you never open your eyes, you just feel, you have no desire to open you eyes, the feeling and the dance in your head is just as appealing, if not more gratifying in your head than in reality......

she even got up to make me biscuts with apple jelly before i left for work.

god damn!

she has the option to go back to sleep, but still.....

i think perhaps the emotional outpour from last night may have had something to do with the fact that the prgnancy test came up negative.

We were fully prepared to (os so we think anyway) to accept the possibility of having a child.

She is not willing to put her body through an abortion unless it's life threatening to her or abnormal, she just doesn't want to put her body under the stress of that. I understand.

There are few birth controls for us and frankly it's only a matter of time before something slips by.

I think we are ready and perhaps it will be one of those tacit agreements.

It will never be "honey lets go make a baby!!!!!"

It will be, "um honey, it happened.." and neither of us will be surprised.

and then we will then revamp our lives to accept the responsibility

It was an empotional night when she got back from japan, and well we were emotional and we slipped up. we have been paranoid ever since.....jet lag and stress can do amazing things to a womans body. and I suppose thats cause for the delay with "aunt flo"

anyway, off to big bear to kill some brain cells, brake a leg snow boarding, karaoke-ing on the lake, chopping firewood, hiking, and a stab at nature photograophy. I assure it will not be the typical crap of the ansel adams breed.

I intend to exemplify man in nature, nature in man, as in "why is that woman crouched behind that tree, and whats he doing with his arms out like a bird and oh yeah look at the pretty mountains in the background...... "

i am excited. the drive is short, but according to the map very mountaineous, we are riding in my buddy's big assed 92 bronco, just like OJ's. I admit to being a little scared in that top heavy bitch around some of those mountain bends, but hey thats part of the fun right.......?\

though i am not out IN the woods yet, have a great and SAFE new years everyone!

with sarah. i've never been rejected so much as in these past few months.

wtf is wrong with these people? are they blind to talent?

I'm sick. I need warmth.

taking off for detroit.

I may not get back to the boards for a couple weeks, so everybody have a good time.

I hope nothing really amazing happens that will caus eme to stay on the boards for three days to catch up while I'm gone.

Au revoir, and fuck the french.

taking off for detroit.

I may not get back to the boards for a couple weeks, so everybody have a good time.

I hope nothing really amazing happens that will caus eme to stay on the boards for three days to catch up while I'm gone.

Au revoir, and fuck the french.

just sitting here, experiencing the glow. the glow of poetry, the glow of time moving on, the glow of the aftereffect of the indian eggplant, still present in my mouth. oh, yes, and the onions. sorry, Mark.

Thanking Dave for the Win95 CD. Now, what do I do to load Dial Up Networking? And do I use th reg. version or the OSR2?

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I'M JUST
SITTIN HERE
DOING THE
NEUTRON
DANCE

/

feeling rested. cleaning does that. I cleaned my pigsty bedroom yesterday. changed the bed linens. made the bed. no more obstacle course to stumble over. the cat has no dirty clothes bunkers to live in.

this is a good thing.

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We're pitcairn island ladies
We're pitcairn island gents
We are the innocent victums
Of a strange turn of events
We'll dance the night away
Underneath these foregn skies
We've never been this happy
In all of our lives

leaving work til next Monday woooHOOO!

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not that is has anything to do with anything, but i once groomed and trained an Arab gelding named Neutron Dance.

he is a horse, an actual horse, not whatever else that connotes. a son of the famous Bey Shah.

wondering who you all are and how/if you know each other. how did you get here? why did you come? not that it will affect my life one iota, you understand, it's just that knowing will put paid to an outstanding invoice. what am I doing? clearly I am just procrastinating.

Living a particular song:

I cant deciede to go to work
or stay in bed.
Cause last night I went out
and it hurts my aching head.
Guess Ill get up, go down and clean up,
wash my smokey hair
But it still take me an hour
just to deciede what to wear.
But Im a man of conviction
when it comes to lovin you.
Im a man of conviction

and I

dont know

what else

I

can

do.

wondering who in the sam hell that was.

what does that mean, sam hell? do i have to ask michael quinion? don't some people say sam hill?

not michael quinion.

sam hell/sam hill comes from the name of the celtic new year: Samhain.

Summer's end by the ancient calendar. Oct 31.

leaving for kauai tomorrow morning.

if the world goes all to hell, i'm going down with it, no questions asked and i'll see each and every single one of you there. except maybe Gee.

if the world still exists, i'll see you all on monday right in this spot.

happy new year crew. love you all.

Thinking I just might be tired enuf to sleep thru New Year's Eve.

We're outta here at 1:00 a.m. But my cupboard is bare/so I'll have to stop at the supermarket on my way home.

I can't wait to hit my pillow...

finally going to bed.

at 2 am my neighbor theresa showed up drunk at my back door saying that her car was on the west side, her keys had been stolen, and she couldn't get into her apartment.

2 hours and 45 minutes later everything seems to be sorted out. she says she owes me $25 dollars, 2 pieces of bread, and a present.

having seen about ten other new years from around the world, i'm nearly new yearsed out..

all of yesterday and all of today I've had trouble beathing. I can breath, but it's a constant feeling like you have to catch your breath. I feel so worn out.

it's because of the cold. My mother's worried, but I've felt this way before.

I still don't know if I want to go out, though.

Telling Gee to stay home & rest. (Are you sure it's just a cold? Never heard of cold symptoms like that... Are you asthmatic?) Partying's no fun when you can't catch yr breath.

And being PISSED OFF that all those damn Microsoft updates I downloaded really DID NOT correct my access problems. I am locked out of the boards again/
as usual. And I thought I'd hooked up the DialUp thang (thanks again for the CD ____) /but either I did it wrong or that Net Zero program is defective. I open it up & it appears to load/but it never connects me to the damn internet!

Looks like Six & I will be spending New Year's Eve offline/watching all the movies I misssed at the theater during 1999 & all the celebrations around the globe. The Eiffel Tower bash definitely gets Best Pyrotechnics Display so far.

Hoping Mark &/or Swine are out in the thick of all the madness in NYC. From the news coverage/it definitely looks like THE party of the Millennium.

Wishing
Agatha, Cleo & ____
MistaSwine
Natorious
Gee
Patrick
PJBoy
Marvelous Margret
J
Rhiannon
Cyst
Sarah
Antigone
& esp. His Markness

a
Happy YEAR 2000!!!

getting ready to be living in the Future!!!
(note: capital F)
just whose goddamn millennium is this, anyway?

getting paid a hundred bucks cash to drink beer and play my guitar for four hours tonight. Then doing it again tomorrow night for another C-note. It's a dirty job but someone's gotta do it.

I have the weekend water sample duty too. That normally involves a quick trip into work for about an hour each day. Only this weekend, because it happens to be a large federal hydropower facility in a remote area, they have instituted some rather severe security measures. I feel more like Maxwell Smart trying to get through the elaborate system of barricades, alarms, locks and other various temporary obstacles. I'll get paid an extra hour's overtime just for getting through the maze each day.

I plan to start this new century off by breaking this massive rejection streak everybody's been talking about lately... I interview Monday morning at 9am. I'll have an answer by the end of the week. Once I open the floodgates, I expect nate and sarah to ride the wave as well.

Happy New Year everybody.